Goal » [Niall Horan]

Chapter 19 - Leaving

[a lot happens in this chapter. prepare yourselves.]

Niall's POV

I wake up and look at my surroundings.

I'm in a hospital room.

"What the fuck?" I say to myself.

I glance down at my hands and notice my hand wrapped in cotton. I try moving my finger and the pain shoots through my arms. I groan at the pain and squint my eyes as I remember how it happened.

I was so happy cooking with Julie, until I remember we aren't together. I was mad and cut myself. Not on purpose, but I wasn't being careful.

Someone knocks on my door.

"Come in." I call and the door opens slowly to reveal Julie. "Hey." I say and my voice cracks.

"Hey." she whispers and closes the door and walks slowly towards me. "Are you okay? I'm so sorry. It's all my fault. I should ha-"

"It's not your fault." I cut her off.

"B-But-"

"It wasn't your fault Julie!" I raise my voice and she takes a small step back. "Please come here." I plead and she slowly pads closer to me. I grab her hand and pull her down and bring her into a tight hug.

"Does it hurt?" she asks, breaking the hug.

"Uh, no" I lie. "Why didn't you hug back?" I ask feeling hurt.

"I-I'm still trying to get over you Niall... Hugging you won't help me get over this." she whispers and my heart breaks.

"You want to get over me?"

"N-No, but I have to sometime, right? I mean I can't be miserable for the rest of my life." she hesitates on every word.

"You don't ever want to get back together?" I ask.

"Of coarse I do, I love you Niall, but I honestly think, being single for the rest of my life is the better option." she states.

"I don't think it is." I say. I almost want to laugh at her basically saying she wants to be forever alone.

"Exactly, you'll find someone perfect for you, you'll fall in love, and have a happy life." she says and blinks quickly to keep away the tears.

"What if that person is you?" I whisper.

"It isn't, Niall. You don't love me. And I can't love you the way you deserve. It'd be better if you find someone else." she says and her voice cracks and a tear falls down her cheek.

"Please say you don't mean that." I plead and close my eyes.

"I do." she whispers.

"No, you don't" I whisper back, eyes still closed.

"I do Niall, I love you so much; but I won't be able to show you, the way you deserve. Please get over me because you deserve someone who can actually be with you." she whispers and I open my eyes to see her with her eyes closed.

I close my eyes again. "I love you Julie." I whisper.

"Please, Niall."

"I love you, and we can be together. We could be together, but I'll give you space when it comes to your scholarship." I reason.

"It won't work." she says and we both open our eyes.

"We'll never know until we try."

"I guess you're right." she whispers and furrows her eyebrows in deep concentration. She opens her mouth to speak but no sound comes from her lips.