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Chapter 17 - I love you

Julie's POV

"Dad! You can't make me choose!" I raise my voice.

"Yes, I can, and you have to choose!" he yells.

"Well I'm not going to." I say and leave the office.

"Yes you will!" he yells but I ignore him.

I know I'll have to choose. But I really don't want to. I love soccer and Niall so much.

"What's wrong?" Niall says and stands from the couch. "Are you okay?" he asks and holds me in a tight hug. "Jules, you can tell us." Niall says, referring to the boys also staring at me with worried expressions.

"Thank you Niall, but I need time to think." I break the hug and walk upstairs.

I hold back the tears as much as I can, but it's so hard not to cry.

"Julie?" Niall whispers and opens my bedroom door slowly.

"Come in." I mumble.

"What happened?" he asks and sits in front of.

"I can't handle it anymore." I say and tears stream out of my eyes.

"Oh my gosh." he says shocked and holds me in his arms.

"I have something to say." I whisper.

"Anything." he says and breaks the hug.

"I love you, Niall." I say and the tears spill out of my eyes faster. He grins, making me smile too.

"I love you too, Jules." he says and hugs me again.

"But I have a hard decision to make." my voice cracks and I sob.

"What is it?" his smile turns into a frown.

"I have to choose you or soccer." I say and sob harder.

"What's your answer?" he asks and I can tell he's trying not to cry.

I hold my face in my hands and cry harder.

"It's okay. I understand." Niall says and stands up from my bed. "I love you, Julie." he says and leaves my room.

"Niall!" I call but he doesn't come back. "Fuck!" I scream and cry into my pillow.

*2 hours later*

I haven't left my room. I haven't stopped crying either.

"Good choice." my dad says as he walks into my room. "Are you crying?" he asks.

"No shit." I mumble.

"I will not accept that language, you chose well, I'm proud of you." he says.

"No! I wish I could change my chose, honestly dad! Yeah, soccer is what I've always dreamed of doing in college, but he makes me happy, and I think that's more important." I say while crying.

"I don't-" he starts.

"No, dad, I love him and I don't think you understand that!" I yell and cover myself with my blanket.

I hear his feet move down the hallway and hear his bedroom door slam.

I can't sit here, broken all day. So I get up and walk down stairs. I ignore the boys staring at me and grab my keys and hurry out the door.

"Hey! Wait!" Harry yells.

"What?" I ask.

"Niall is really upset." he says softly.

"Yeah, so am I. If you are just talking to make me feel bad then it's working." I say and wipe away the tear dripping down my face. He doesn't say anything. I turn around and leave.

I drive until I get to Jess' house. I knock on the door and no one answers.

"Who are you?" a boy says when he opens the door.

"I'm Julie, Jess' best friend." I reply.

"Jess has never mentioned you. She says Dylan, Josh, Ally and Sammy are her best friends." he says.

"Wow." I whisper and my voice cracks.

"Babe! Who is it?" Jess yells and comes to the door. "Oh." is all she says when she sees me. A tear falls from my eye and I cry without being able to hold in the tears. "You're crying?!" she panics and I nod. "This must me serious." she mumbles. "You need to leave." she says and I panic but turn around to leave. "Not you!" she calls to me and I turn around confused. "You." she points to the boy.

"Are you kidding me?!" he yells.

"Leave Justin." she says and he stomps out of the house.

"Come in." Jess whispers. I enter her house and we sit on the coach. "What's wrong?" she asks.

"I'm in love with Niall." I say softly.

"That's good, isn't it?"

"No, I had to choose Niall or soccer." I sob.

"And you chose soccer?" she asks and I nod.

"I'm so sorry, I know I've been a horrible friend, no wonder you didn't tell your boyfriend about me. I'm so so sorry." I cry harder.

"Don't worry about it. I'm glad you're here." she says. "I mean, I'm glad you decided to come to me instead of anyone else, it shows you still care, I guess." she says.

"I've always cared." I weep and she nods.

I end up spending the night and I wake up on the coach.

"I have to leave." I say to Jess who's on the other side of the coach. She nods and I thank her.

I drive home. I park in front of my house and check my phone so I don't have to go inside.

@NiallHoran tweeted:
Together or not, I will still love you forever.

A tear falls from my eye and I wipe it away.

"Hey!" someone says from outside my car.

I hop out of my car "Hi." I reply.

"We have a game tonight, it's back on since the weather has cleared up." Louis says giving me a sympathetic smile.

"Okay." I simply reply and walk inside.

I ignore the eyes staring at me.

"Where have you been?" Liam asks.

"I was out." I reply and walk up the stairs.

I walk slowly past Niall's bedroom door and I assume he is in there, since he wasn't down stairs. Right then, the door opens, revealing Niall's tear-stained face. We stare at each other and a tears fall from my eyes.

"I love you." I whisper and walk past him into my door.

I get ready for soccer and run down stairs.

"You guys ready?" I ask quietly, not trusting my voice to speak at full volume.

They all nod and follow me to the car. Liam sits in the passenger seat and it's weird because I'm used to Niall sitting there. That's Niall's seat, not Liam's, but I don't say anything.

***

I park the car and walk to the field with my ball and water bottle.

I run around the field to warm up and I ignore Niall's and the others' eyes watching my every move. I grab my ball and practice shooting.

"Julie!" Coach Blue yells and I run over to him. "You're playing the whole game." he smiles.

"Shocker." I say sarcastically to myself and run onto the field.

The rest of the team does the team chant but I don't join. I stay in my position on the field and the rest of the team joins, getting in their possessions.

Louis is to my right and a boy/man named Ricardo is to my left. The whistle blows and I pass to Ricardo, he dribbles and passes back to me. I run with the ball and shoot.

"SCORE!" a voice says into the mic.

I ignore the excitement and walk to my position. The other team pass to each other and a big man comes toward me with the ball. I try to steal it, but he steps on my foot and trips. My foot aches but I ignore the pain. Louis gets the ball and shoots from the middle of the field. The goalie catches it. Louis huffs and the goalie punts the ball.

It comes to me and I trap it with my feet. I pass the Ricardo and he passes back to me quickly. I roll my eyes.

I passed to him cause someone from the other team is next to me, now he passes back and the other team steals it from me. It's like, whats the freaking point? I shoot Ricardo a glare and he shrugs.

I run after the ball and my foot starts to hurt more.

***

"Julie! Wake up! Please wake up." a voice whispers.

I open my eyes and see a room full of people and Niall standing right above me. I smile sadly at him and he takes a step away from me and my heart aches.

"Where am I?" I ask, ignoring the pain of heartbreak that is is throbbing in my chest.

"You blacked out, we're at the hospital." Zayn answers.

"Why is the whole team here?" I ask.

"Well, they wanted to see if you were going to be okay." Liam says and I roll my eyes.

"What's wrong with me?" I ask.

"They don't know yet, your foot is badly bruised." Liam answers.

"When can I play again?" I ask.

"Two weeks." the doctor interrupts, answering my question. I nod and close my eyes. "Are you hurting?" he asks and I nod. "You can leave now if you'd like. Your foot is already bandaged." he says and I stand up. My foot aches but I ignore it.

"How did I black out, if it was just a bruise?" I ask the doctor.

"I assume you haven't been eating a lot lately, and then playing aggressively could have triggered your body to black out. Also, if you've been upset lately, that could also trigger your system to black out, along with the lack of food, over activeness with soccer and bruised foot, all just made your system pass out." the doctor rambles.

I'm pretty sure he just said 'making your body black out' about ten times...

I nod. I look at Niall awkwardly and he turns away. I suddenly realize that everything the doctor said was true. I haven't eaten since yesterday when I broke up with Niall, which was in the morning. And I was upset. I was and still am, upset, about Niall and I. I'm not mad at him though, I'm mad at myself, and again, there's another thing that I can blame myself for myself. People will tell me 'It's not your fault'.... Fuck, yes, it is.

The other boys give me sad smiles while we all listen to the doctor.

The rest of the team says goodbye to me, leaving the doctor, Zayn, Liam, Harry, Louis and Niall left in the room with me.

"You haven't been eating?" Zayn asks worried.

"I guess not." I shrug. "I was just... Upset with myself, and I didn't think about food." I add and they nod.

"Let's go get some food." Liam suggests and I agree.

We get to my car and my dad is waiting there.

"Hey, Jules!" he chimes and I roll my eyes as I get in the passenger seat of my car.

"Where's your car?" I ask.

"I came with Coach Blue." he says and I nod. The boys hop in the back of my car and I lean my head against the window and close my eyes.

***

"Shh! You'll wake her!" someone yells/ whispers.

I keep my eyes closed, not caring who it is. I feel my body lay on a bed. I assume it's mine. The person's arms slide from under me and leave the room.

It doesn't take long for me to fall asleep again.










[A/N]:

oh my goshhh </3

so much happened in this chapter </3

I'm dying </3



xx~