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Chapter 27 - words

I usually don't put songs for each chapter but the

Rylie Brown cover of Clarity

really goes with this chapter; I think :)

(Clarity is originally by Zedd but I like Rylie Brown's cover a lot more for this chapter)

Niall's POV

"What do you want?" Julie asks the moment I close the door of her room.

"I want you." I admit.

"Niall, I loved you. You know that right? I thought you loved me too. We were gonna try and do a long distance relashionship, and how did that work? Oh right, it didn't because you never texted." she snaps.

Loved?? Does she not love me anymore?

My heart pounds in my chest; beating faster and faster. I really hope she's just mad but still loves me.

I think of what to say, not wanting to anger her more.

"I don't know if you remember but I told you to text me when you could." I snap. "And I did text you. You didn't reply." I add.

"So this is my fault now?" she yells.

I shouldn't have said that, she's pissed. My heart continues to pound as I stare at her fuming face. I don't want to say anything else that will hurt her.

"It always has been!" I lie.

"You don't mean that." she frowns, her voice instantly becoming softer; more weak.

Fuck. I need to be more careful with my sentances. I sigh in frustration and stare at her frowning lips. "Of coarse not." I sigh.

"Than why did you day it?"

"I didn't mean it." I say taking a step towards her.

"Don't." she stops me from getting any closer.

"Jules." I plea.

"Niall, stop. You hurt me." Julie whispers and her voice cracks. A tear falls from her eye and she's quick to wipe it away.

"Do you still love me?" I finally ask, needing to know the answer.

She doesn't answer, making me want to scream. She stares at me as I wait for her answer. Her blue eyes shimmer under the lights. Her tears make her eyes appear bluer. Her messy blonde hair is wavy and frizzed. Her makeup is smeared under her eyes and she's wearing the dress she wore to the club last night.

Images of another man touching her and making her scream run through my mind making me want to scream more than her silence is.

I take a step closer to her and she backs away.

"Please, please answer me." I plead and a tear falls down my cheek. I don't bother swiping it away. I want her to see the tear. Maybe she'll realize I'm getting emotional because I love her so much. "I need to know!" I take a step closer and she takes a step back. I take three steps forward, and she takes three steps back. Her back presses against the wall and I use this to my advantage. I take a step forward and cup Julie's face in my palm. "I love you so much." I whisper. I dip my head down and she turns her head away. "Please, I need to know if you still love me. Let me show you I still love you." I whisper and she looks into my eyes. I lean my head again and my lips brush over hers. Our hot beath mixing, causing my breath to hitch in my throat. I stare into her eyes. She's hesitant on letting me kiss her. Her eyes close and I fully press my lips to hers. I kiss her, waiting for her to kiss back but she never does. My mouth moves against her motionless lips. I release her lips and cry into her shoulder.