sail away

xii

you collected coins when

you were younger.

you and your father

would go all over

to find the ones you desired.

you loved him

and he loved you.

and i wonder if when he died

was when you vowed that you

owed your life to the sea.

was that why you left?

i feel foolish that I've

just come to the realization.

but you never told me

how you felt.

you only let me hold you while you cried

once.

i would have taken care of you.

i would have loved you

and held you

just like the sea.

if only you had stayed,

and let me.