i'm sitting on the beach now,
wondering about
my decisions
and my existence.
it's a tricky thing- to wonder.
because somehow i always
end up upset.
i miss so many things
and although at this moment,
i feel like i could die without them,
i'm ready to move on.
your brother asked me
to leave with him.
he used the word escape, actually.
and somehow i understood
that word more.
he has a car ready
and a lot of confidence.
he makes me laugh
and as i stare down that empty
road that could lead me out
of our town,
i want to go.
but i'm not sure if my wants
are my needs.
and i find myself wishing you
were here to tell me.
but then i remember that you
only bring me pain.
so as i look down the road again,
i smile and run to get your brother.
because i have decided
to live instead of wallow.
to think for myself,
and all i can think of,
is freedom.
YOU ARE READING
sail away
Romance"what did you do while i was away?" he asked. and she never answered, until now.
