Just Being Honest

Grieving

Sandy In The MM
Lee POV
We are boarding our plane to go to New Jersey. Every time I think of him and her not being here it make me want to break down and cry. But I have to stay strong for everybody else. Jay is doing better he out of surgery. I been praying everyday that he stays alive. I just can't wait to get off this flight and see his mom because I know she wants to see me. Especially because she has no one other than us and Jay to depend and call family. Donald daddy left when he was two years old. Her family doesn't speak to her because she wouldn't give them money that her grandmother gave to her and Donald. It's crazy because she the type of person who would do anything for you. She was the reason we got into college on a full ride.

She always said her son wasn't for me and I needed to leave him alone because I was going to get hurt. I guess that was her way of warning me about the cheating and the lies. But I loved him with all of me and it was blind love but I loved him. He made me feel right when it was just us.

Justiono has been blowing up my phone. I guess he heard what happened from his friend and he was calling to check on me. It was sweet and if I wanted to date again it would be with him. He different from the other nigga I know. The short period I've known him he really been a good person.

Three Hours Later
We finally get to New Jersey and we are glad to be getting off the plane. We take a uber car to Mama Hannah house. When we finally get there she standing outside talking to her nosy neighbor. We get out the car and she immediately run over to us. She hugged us super tight. We couldn't even breathe she was hugging us so tight. She took us in the house and had her butler get our bags.

She said " I'm so glad that my babies are with me. "
JoJo said " I missed you so much mama. I ain't seen you in forever."
She said " You know I miss my dramatic baby."
JoJo said " You knows it."
Nate said " Have you talk to Sandy mom about custody of Jay?"
She said " Naw I haven't really talked them about custody but I'm sure we'll get around to it."
I said " Well I want to go see my baby Jay."
She said " And you know he loves you as if you were his second mom. We can go see him after y'all get something to eat because I know you're all hungry."
We all said " Yeah you know we hungry."

We go in the kitchen and sit down at the bar counter and wait for our food. She cooks all her food instead of having a chef. She made us steak, collared greens, mashed potatoes, and corn. A meal I've been missing.

Mama Hannah asked " So what going on in y'all love life."
I said " What love life after Donald I really rather be single."
JoJo said " Me and Ryan are still together."
Mama Hannah said " Why you say it like you not happy with your relationship honey?"
JoJo said " Because I'm not. Our relationship ain't the same we don't connect like we used to."
Mama Hannah said " Honey you will be okay. Y'all been together for a long time so it going to be distant between y'all.
JoJo said " Yeah I'm just going to hold on because I love that little boy."
Mama Hannah said " What about your love life Nate Pooh? You and old man Timorous still together?"
Nate started to tear up and said " No we not together. He put his hands on me Mama for no reason."

Remember back to that night he starts to cry.

Mama Hannah got up and hugged Nate.

She said " Pooh you didn't deserve that. You're a beautiful spirit that deserves nothing but the best. I love you and hate to see any of my babies cry."

She always been overprotective over Nate the most. We've always wondered why she protected him the most. He himself think that I should've been the one that she protected the most because I am the most sensitive.

Nate said " Mama Hannah Lee lying to you about not dating anyone else."
I said " No I'm not I'm not dating right now."
He said " Then why you go on a date with Justiono."
I said " That wasn't a date we were just hanging out as friends. Plus he straight why would I go on a date with a straight guy?"
He said " Ummhmm sure that's wasn't a date but I know you would date him."
I said " Of course he is a good person."

We wash our plates and left the house so we can go to the hospital. We got there and I immediately run towards his room. I see him lying there with wires and tubes in his body. It just made me sad to see him like this.

I grabbed his hand and said " Mucho Jay I'm right here baby boy."

He moved his hand in mine letting me know he is alive. He been my baby since he was born. Sandy always said he loved me as if I was his mama too. She also said if something happened to him she would want him to go with me. Our relationship was always weird. I always wonder was she being genuinely nice to me or was she just doing it because I was with Donald. But I know she care for me as much as I cared for her.

I asked" Are they going to question him on what happened?"
Mama Hannah said " Yeah sadly they are."
I said " So what are the plans for Donald's funeral?"
Mama Hannah " Well I plan on having it this weekend but I want to celebrate his life not mourn his life. I want to have a tribal death celebration for him."
I said " That sounds wonderful we don't need mourning we need celebration of life and that he lived on this earth."