Just Being Honest

X-Ray

Tomas In The MM
Lee POV
I decided to do something major.I think I want to go see my dad. I had so many questions that are running through my head. I really want to know why? Leland is going with me because I can't go by myself. The whole ride to the prison I was thinking about backing out but we got to far. I was so nervous my hands were shaking. Leland had to calm me down a couple times. We had finally made it to the jail I really wanted to turn around and go back home.

We walked in the door and got checked by security.

A woman asked "Who we were here to see?"
Leland said " Leelo Niller"
She said " I know you now who is this one.?"
I said " I'm Lee--
She cut me off and said " Ohh your his other son that he talks about all the time. He always wants to know what you look like or how you turned out."

I didn't say anything because I just wanted to get this visit over with. She walked us to a room with other people visiting there parents or loved ones. I look at Leland and he just smiled. I seen the door open and see a tall dark skinned man coming out the door. He over to us with a smile on his face. I really couldn't show an emotional because I had none towards this man.

He said " Hello my sons. Lee I know I got of explaining to do. I will explain why I wasn't there for you. Why I didn't fight for you. You look just like your mother and it's crazy."

I didn't say anything I didn't even have an expression on my face. So he went back to talking.

He said " Me and your mother were young and dumb. I got her pregnant twice before we had you. She had them both but ended up selling your old sister for crack and I sold your older brother for heroine. A couple years later she got pregnant with you. She didn't know she was pregnant with you until she was seven months. You we're born three days after she found out. She then left you in a trash can to buy some drug for us. I guess she was in there to long and the cops seen you in the trash and rushed you to the hospital. They arrested me and your mom and made us give up our custody. They sent the both of us to a rehabilitation program for two years. We got and found each other. Then we had your brother and your mother died after having him. I've always kept up with you and what you where doing. I made sure that you were always okay I kept up with your brother and sister too but there grown with there own kids. I'm sorry though I should've been your parent and not been on drugs. I wish me and your mom could've been there for you. We were really the true definition of young and dumb. "

I couldn't even speak I just cried. I cried because for as long as I can remember I wanted so bad to know who my parents were. I wanted to know why I was the child that they gave up. I always thought it was my fought until I grew and realized that it wasn't. I couldn't remember a day when I didn't cry because I felt I didn't deserve love. That why I loved Donald so much.

I said ". I honestly don't know what to say. I always wondered what it was. I see other people with there parents and I wonder where are mine. I always said if one day I meet my parents I am going to thank them. So thank you because if you hadn't have to give me up I wouldn't be who I am today. Sure I never grew up with a consistent parent. I still turned out great. So thank you."

He said " I'm proud of how you turned out. Shit I'm proud of all my kids. Me and your mother weren't in y'all life to ruin it."

It was silent at the table until he said something.

He said " I'm happy you came to see me. I really hope that one we could have a father son relationship. But I know that to much to ask of you right now. Just know I love you and will always love you. I'm sorry I couldn't be your father like I was supposed to."

He got up but I couldn't let him leave without giving him a hug. He wasn't in my life but it's something that I had to go through to be the person I am now.

He said " I love you son."

He walked back into the doors and I just felt relieved. I felt relieved because I got to know why. I also was relieved because I got to meet him. I just wished I could've met my mother. Me and Leland leave the prison and head home.

JoJo POV
I am currently getting ready for my date with Dusty. I hope he is not at all like his homeboy Fye. I'm not Lee I will kill you if I find out you trying to play me. He been good so far he ain't really showed me no signs that make me want to cut him off yet. But he might be waiting until I give him some to change. I also got that (good good) so I know nigga gone change.

I'm am so proud of Lee and Nate because they had the balls to visit a family member. See I may be all dramatic and tough but I'm afraid of being hurt or not wanted. That why when Ryan cheated it felt like a dagger through my heart. I know I portrayed that I didn't care but I did. It hurts to know that I wasn't good enough for him.

Dusty and I are having a park date. Which is so romantic? He had everything set up just right. Our date would have been good if...

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