Just Being Honest

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Leland Old Friend In The MM
One Month Later
Lee POV
It's has been a month since Hendrix left and I been really missing him. We talk almost everyday but it's not the same. He tells me not to worry and that we will see each other soon but I have a feeling something is wrong. I just can't put my finger around it. I've really been using school and Jay as a distraction. School has been going good I've meet new people. But is this boy in my English course that just started and he looks real familiar. I try to be nosy and figure his name out. But my plan didn't work.

I'm currently in class with him still trying to figure out who he is. I seen him look up a me and smile. I started to remember that smile from somewhere. Class was over and it was time for us to leave. He walked over to where I was standing.

He said " Lee Niller."
I said " Yeah that me."
He said " You must don't remember me."
I said " No but you look really familiar."
He said " It's King Taylor."

I started thinking to where I heard that name before. I remembered a King when I was in middle school and he was a little quiet thug with glasses. Now that I think about it that why he look so familiar. King wanted to be with me him. I wanted to be with him to but he moved away. The last I heard of him was that he got into a car accident and almost died. He always said if he comes back I'm going to be the one he going to be with forever.

I started smiling and said " How you been?"
He said " I've been good just glad to be living."
I said " Yeah I heard about your car accident. I'm glad you made it out okay."
He said " Yeah that wasn't the only thing that happened to me though. I almost died again because of this crazy ass nigga that I had got with. He tried to put a hit out on me because I broke up with him. He almost succeeded if my friend hadn't pushed me on the ground."
I said " Ohh my god. I'm glad you are still living."
He said " By the grace of god. How are you and Donald?"
I said " You had heard."
He said " Heard what?"
I said " Donald and Sandy got killed a year ago."
He said " Damn my bad I'm sorry. I know he was your heart."
I said " You didn't know but yeah that is true. No matter how hard I tried to walk away I couldn't. Until I got enough and finally walked away."
He said " Yeah that how it was for me and my baby mama. After I moved away I met this beautiful girl and fell in love. But the relationship was toxic and plus I still had feelings for someone."
I said " And who was that someone?"
He said " You know it was you. I will always have feelings for you. No matter how hard I fight it you always came to my mind."

I started smiling because I know I kinda of lead him on. But I did like him a lot. He just moved away. I always wondered what would have happened if I had went out with him.

He said " But I'm sure you're in a relationship and loyal so I have no chance right now. But I do want to be friends."
I said " Yeah I would like that."

I gave him my number and went to meet Joyce for lunch sense both our class were cancelled because our professor is sick. I was glad shit I was tired anyway. I got to the table and that feeling came back.

Joyce asked" You good it look like something bothering you."
I said " I just got this feeling that something is wrong."

Joyce got a call on her phone from her mom. She instantly looked up at me and I just cried.  She hung up the phone.

She cried and said " They said he committed suicide last night."

I really broke down then because I had a feeling something wasn't right. I prayed that this was a dream because I couldn't believe this. I got and hugged Joyce. I just couldn't understand it. I can't believe this why him. Why did he have to take his life? What was going on to make him do this.

JoJo POV
Yes me and Joe are still together tragically I forgave him. He working on regaining my trust. It's going to be hard for him to though. I am too hurt and I don't really take being lied to lightly. Plus I think he messing with somebody else. I wouldn't put it past him because I ain't been having sex with him. So I know he getting it from and it ain't me. But I ain't worried I got nigga wanting me everyday. So it's nothing to be done with the relationship. I just want it to work with him but I ain't no fool.

I plan on asking him if he is cheating. If he lie I'm done with him.

Lee POV
I just picked up Jay and went home. I didn't want him to see me cry so I put sunglasses over my eyes.

He asked " MaLee have you talked to Hendrix today?"

I didn't know how to answer that question. I didn't know if I should lie or tell him the truth. I really didn't know what to do because I knew Jay really liked Hendrix. And I don't know how he is going to take another person in his life that died. He already lost his parents. I just decided to tell him the truth.

I said " I have something to tell you when we get back to the house it has to do with Hendrix."
He said " Okay"

We pulled up at the house and walk into the house. Jay walked over to the couch and signaled for me to sit down. I went over how I'm going to tell him this in my head.

I said " Jay Hendrix died."
I started crying just thinking about it. I felt Jay get up. He walked over and hugged me tightly.

He said " It's okay MaLee don't cry please."

There was a knock at the door so I got myself together and went to open it. It was the mail man he had a package for me. It was a box from Hendrix. I signed and closed the door. I then walked over to the couch and sat on it to open the box. It had three letters, a necklace, and some toys that look like there for Jay and Aaliyah. I open the letter that had my name on it.

The Letter
If you're reading this letter I'm sorry. I've been dealing with things that I never told anybody but Joyce about. Being here brought back those memories. I know you think that it's self of me to do it but I needed to be free from this body. I've never loved someone as much as I loved you. You are truly a beautiful person who deserves the world. I'm sorry if I hurt you and tell Jay I am sorry too. I know he looked up to me and I let him down.

I've tried to think if I wanted to tell you about what I've been dealing with.

I was raped by my big cousin from the age of 10 to 15. The only person that knows about it is Joyce. She only knows because she seen it with her eyes. After that we never really seen him that much. I was so glad because I didn't have to go through being raped anymore. I eventually started acting out and my mom put me in counseling. It help me cope with my problems. But being here brought them back up.

I love you and I am so sorry I didn't this. But I need to be away from the world and my problems. I love you and don't want you to mourn over me. I want you to move on and have a good life. You deserve the best and nothing less. And please give my mom and Joyce there letters.

Forever love you and Goodbye

Letter End

Nothing but tears running down my face. I didn't know what to think or do. Jay came and gave me a hug.

He said " MaLee don't cry it's going to be okay. It just something that was meant to happen. You know he loves you."

I just reread the letter over and over trying to fully understand it. I started smiling because I knew he was okay where ever he was.

JoJo POV
I met up with Joe at the restaurant. I really wasn't in the mood to argue so I am just going to be calm and collective. He came in the restaurant with a big ass kool aid smile on his face. I just rolled my eyes because I'm not in a smiling manner.

He said " Damn what I do this time?"
I said " What you mean what you do?"
He said " Yeah why am I getting an attitude from you?"
I said" I'm going ask you a question and I want you to be completely honest with me. Are you cheating on me?"

He looked away and then back at me.

He said " Yes with this dude name Sammie. I'm sorry I fuck up again."
I said " Yeah you did and I am good we can still have sex and talk when you need a friend, but as far as this relationship I'm done."

He just shook his head. And I know y'all judging but sex with him is amazing. I can't believe ohh sneaky Sammie done got to another. He is truly a hoe. But it ain't my problem because I'm about to join the club.