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Chapter 5

Chapter 5.

Breakup.

I think I am gonna get judged so bad right now. But still I ask you not to judge me.

I had a boyfriend.

And I fear being judged because here I am talking about a guy in my life, whom I have loved for so long but I was in a relationship with someone else.

Let me explain please.

As I have told earlier he had a girlfriend for five freaking years and I kind off had feelings for him a year or so after Diya and Akki started dating and I didn't acknowledge those feelings cause, obviously I would rather hurt myself than try and break a relationship.

Confusing?

Welcome to my life.

Coming to my boyfriend story now, I had been asked out a couple of times but I always declined. At that time I probably didn't know why, but now I know.

Anyways, so there was this certain guy in my college and we became friends cause we had the same class and then after a month or so of talking and getting to know each other he asked me out. And on that specific day Akshay put his profile picture of him and Diya hugging each other and his status was 'There are many love stories in the world but our love story is my favorite'.

Damn! That was really sweet of him.

But my poor heart. I had prohibited it from feeling stuff and also strictly warned my heart to not pass any information of said feelings to my brain, cause I was stubborn like that.

So my poor confused heart pinched in my chest and I felt weird and my brain did the stupidest thing ever.

It texted that other guy saying: 'Yes I would like to go out with you.'

I hope I explained it well.

Now that I do know my feelings for Akshay I can only justify my actions by saying : 'I just don't wanna feel anything that I was not supposed to feel at that time.'

Well that relationship obviously didn't workout because well when you are with someone, they kind off need to be your priority, not your guy best friend.

Sigh!

I know. I KNOW.

I hurt someone else and I did apologize to him multiple times and I guess he just understood me which was really nice of him.

Me and this guy broke up like after hardly 4 months of dating.

I won't lie, I was hurt for breaking his heart and for all the other known reasons. By this time Akshay and Diya celebrated their 3 year anniversary.

After a week of the breakup I did tell Akshay about it.

And let me tell you, he totally and utterly has no idea how to console.

This was our conversation.

Sha (S): Hey.

Akshay (AK): Hey girl! Wassup?

S : Nothing much. Jus lying on my bed. N u?

AK : I was just watching TV.

S : Oh cool!

AK : Hey? What's wrong?

S : Nothing Akki.