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Chapter 7

Chapter 7.

Running race.

Races are fun and exciting when you have to run in a track to win a prize. But it's not so fun to run when the race you are talking about has life as the running track.

I know am getting a little too philosophical. But I can't help it. It's 3:00 am and am sitting here crying my heart out about all the things and I just wanted to put it out there.

For the longest time I have felt that I and Akshay are running on the same track to get through life.

But whenever I and Akshay get into a fight it's like he gets so pissed off on me that he increases his pace and just runs away without even looking back if am catching up. And am just left there looking at his back disappearing in the distance.

Fights. You have no idea how many huge fights we have had. We didn't talk for months at times.

They say that fights bring you close together. But they don't tell you that fights can also tear down a piece of your heart.

Akshay is a great guy obviously.

I love him.

But, there is always gotta be a 'but' right? I just sometimes feel like he can manage fine on his own without me.

And so that brings me to a situation that I wanna tell and then you can tell me if am being too whiny and complaining.

Akshay is not my only male friend. Duh! I have a few other guy friends, I am not much close to them but we occasionally text or hang out sometimes.

One such friend is Raghav.

Um..He and I have have history. Raghav and I met in 9th grade, the same time that I met Akshay. Raghav, at first was interested in me cause he thought I was different and befriended me. After that he kind of developed a crush on me. I got to know about this from Akshay because when all the guys were hanging out and talking about stuff, the topic about girls came and Raghav kinda told that he might have a crush on me.

I didn't believe at first because, hello! Insecurity and not believing issues!

He never confessed to me or said anything about it, so I too let it go. We remained friends until now.

One day Raghav texted me when he saw that I had posted a picture of me and Akshay on facebook and he said, "You are still friends with that idiot?"

And omg! I went so crazy on him for calling Akshay an idiot, "What right do you have to call him an idiot? You definitely did not say that casually and you know that. He isn't your close friend so call him by his name or just don't talk about him. It's rude. Understood?"

I did go overboard, but I can't help it. I am over protective of that idiot.

"Chill tiger. I didn't mean to piss you off. I wanted to know about you guys. Sorry!" he responded and I calmed down.

After that, me being the silly me, when I was texting Akki, some topic came up and suddenly I ended up telling him all what happened with Raghav.

To be honest it wasn't much to tell, but I guess we were talking about defending friends and this was sort of like an example of me defending Akki.

Well, that's what I thought.

AK: What is that fucker's problem?

S: Chill dude!

AK: No! I didn't say anything to him right? Why does he have to comment on me.

S: He didn't want to. Besides that's not the point. Um..I was talking about the defending part idiot.

AK: No Shalini. If he is in love with you and wants to be with you, and wants me out of your life then okay, I will step aside.

S: Fine then. I am telling you to get out of my life.

AK: Fine.

S: Bye.

And just like that, he so easily stepped out of my life.

We were running side by side. I stumbled because of something he said and fell down. By the time I look up, I see that he has taken off and I can't make my feet to move fast enough to catch up with him.

This actually frustrates me more than waiting for a new episode of a tv series I like.

I never understood it, how you can just up and leave as if that person didn't matter anymore.

Anyways, after about ten days, Akki called me and I was really pissed off so I gave him a piece of my mind and somehow we settled it I think.

But what scared me the most is, for him leaving is really easy, but for me its damn hard and it terrifies me. Next day he could be gone and I wouldn't even know how to take care of my heart.