Decisions

Shadow Girl

When the world was pushing you down
When no one was there to wipe your tears

I offered you that comfort that you needed

When you stayed up at night and needed that "you'll be okay" text
When you felt like punching a wall as hard as you could

I was there for you to vent your pain at

I tired so hard to make you feel like you had that shoulder
I tried so hard to help you when your mind was racing

But you never truly cared

I cried silently in the shadows when you continued to make me feel unwanted
I stood by waiting for you to see that I was always there for you even in tough times

But you never really noticed all I have done

I keep telling myself that I am done being there
You keep telling yourself "she doesn't mind the constant hurt"

But the truth is it hurts more than anything

It hurts like hell when I see that you really don't care
And it hurts even more when I realize that I care to much

Each day is worst than the last, so when will I say that I have had enough

Today we watched each other from a distance
We haven't talked in a while and it's killing me

There is nothing left for us to say so I guess this is how it has to be

I can't even cry anymore because I've used up all my tears
I try to feel numb but I know my feelings are still there

I wonder why people fall for the one who isn't meant for them
I know we weren't meant to be but I just kept hoping and wishing

But I remember that one day when I realized that spark was missing
We were just to people who talked from time to time
Even though at night I would wish that you were all mine