Why is She Broken?

Chapter 9: The Truth

     Payton runs home after school, crying. She didn't want to see JoJo and Alex on the bus. She was already in enough pain. She looks at her front porch, creek, creek, creek, is all she hears when she takes a few steps. She opens the door. Her father is sitting on the couch with the smell of booze all around him. He hasn't been home for almost six months. He has been on business trips ever since Payton was 13. She walks past him and goes upstairs to her room. Payton turns on her music on her MP3 and listens to, "Her Last  Words," by Courtney Parker.
    She goes into her bathroom and looks at herself. She knows she can't do it now, it has to be night. She decides to take a shower. She takes off her shirt and pants. She starts at herself in the mirror. Looking at all of her scars covering her wrist, arms, stomach, thighs, and her shoulder. She strips off the rest of her clothes and runs a hot shower. The warm water running all down her body feels like waterfalls going down her scars. They hurt a little when
the water passes but that's how she knows she is alive.
     She is in the shower for a very long time. When she gets out it is almost 7:30. She gets into a dress for bed even though she won't be sleeping. She decides she will take her last breath at midnight. She climbs into bed still
listening to music. All she hears from her music as she is about to fall asleep, "Keep holding on. 'Cause you know we'll make it through (We'll make it through). Just stay strong. 'Cause you know I'm here for you (I'm here for you). There's nothing you could say. Nothing you could do. There's no other way when it comes to the truth. So keep holding on. 'Cause you know we'll make it through. (We'll make it thro--)." Her music is interrupted by her father walking into her room.

     Payton pretends that she is asleep but her dad knows that she doesn't fall asleep that early.
       "Pay Pay. Sweetheart I know you are awake."
       "So what?"
       "Did you miss me while I was gone?" He says while he sits on Payton's bed
right besides her.
       "Yes. I did." She lies.
       "I figured." He smirks and puts her hand on her thigh.
       "Dad please don't."
     He puts his hand up her dress and rips off her under clothes.
       "Dad stop please!" Payton exclaims.
     Her father doesn't listen. He pulls off her blankets on her bed. He stands up and starts unbuckling his pants.
       "Sweetheart you and I both know miss my touch. I've been waiting for six months for us to be able to have our time. This won't hurt at all." He says as he pulls down his pants and kneels in front of her legs.
     He pulls Payton towards him and makes himself go inside her. Payton feels a horrible pain in her inner thigh. He puts his hand on her mouth to make her stop screaming.
       "Stop screaming you little bitch. You enjoy it." He smirks.
     He continues until he hears the front door open. It is his wife after all. He hurried and got up.
       "If you say anything to anyone and I mean anyone, I will kill you with my own hands!" He yells.
     He pulled his pants up and ran into the bathroom. Payton lied there in shock with tears burning her cheeks.
     She thinks to herself.
       Your father, Justin, just raped you. He took your virginity. He didn't even give you a chance at a normal life. Him touching you made your life a living hell. You're life has been so hard to live just because of him. You are going to die tonight after all.
     Payton gets off her bed and looks down at her sheets. They are covered in blood. She starts hyperventilating and looks at her legs which also are covered in blood. She takes off her dress and goes into the bathroom. She
takes a quick shower and just puts on her bra and panties so she doesn't ruin her clothes. She texts JoJo and Alex in their group chat that they had.
       "Guys.. I hope you forgive me for what I am about to do.. I will see you guys later in life.."
       "Payton? What are you talking about?" JoJo answers first.
       "Payton, are you okay?" Alex replies.
       "I love you guys.. I'll see you later.."
     Buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz, buzz, is all she hears from her phone. She ends up turning it off. She lies down in the tub and takes her blade. She stares down at her wrists.
     Drip, drip, drip, is what she hears. Blood draining out of both of her wrist. The door busts open, there stands Alex. Payton's vision is blurry but she knows it is him by the sound of his voice. He is yelling but he can barely hear
him. She drifts into a deep sleep.

     All she sees is darkness.