Chapter 4-
Makinseys Pov-
I felt so lost, so confused, and hurt. For some unknown reason I did. I dont even think I will find the answer but I do no that I wasnt innocent. I had a guilty reason to my queasy feeling. I knew it had somthing to do with what Justin had said but as I said before I was lost. So...........Lost! As much as I would love to think and think about it I had to get to school. I jumped out of my bed and went to my closet. I picked out some blue jean shorts, pretty flowy tanktop and put on some flip-flops that matched my shirt. I curled my hair to where it wasnt to dressy but a pretty casual curly hair-do. I put on some light eye liner, mascara, and then I grabbed my book-bag and head out the door with a hug and "Bye Bye" to my mom and step-dad. I walked slowly down the road until my eyes gazed back to the school once again. I lead myself to the door and entered with a wiff of uncomfortable hit me. I looked over it and just walked to my A block. I wasnt looking forward to seeing Justin but hey I might get to have a good day. I sat down and seen Justin walk in as if he didnt remember what happened yesterday. As he walked by I seen a bruise out of the corner of his eye. I got mischevious but I held it in knowing that if I asked Justin would pounce at me and we would get another fight. I felt Justins eyes glued on me as if he was scoring my whole outfit and everything. I had continued through A block looking in the History book and reading the pages we were supposed to be reading but I still felt his eyes burning through me. I got a piece of paper out and wrote down-"Is something wrong with me?" to give to Justin but then the teacher walked over and I hid it as fast as I could. A block ended and I waited outside the door for Justin. I seen him walk out and I grabbed his shoulder and circled him to where he faced me.
"Justin Im not trying to be rude or anything but why did you stare at me throughout A block? Is there something wrong with me? Did I wear something I shouldnt have?" I asked worried
"No." He said plainly and calmly yet he seemed like something was bugging him and then he continued. "I told you not to talk to me Makinsey."
"Yea well dont stare at me if you dont expect me to ask. If you have such a easy response as 'No' then why did you stare?" I asked confused.
"Because." was all Justin said and that really gave me a clue. Huh!-NOT total sarcasm.
"Justinnnn......Like really I cant feel that somethings wrong. Did I do something I mean I said sorry and everything but maybe you are still mad and I ge-" I was about to complete my sentence when Justin pushed me aginst the wall.
"Makinsey you talk to much! I said nothings wrong so just do what you do everyday and go. You did nothing wrong." He said angry
"No Justin because even though you say that....I feel guilt in me. I am not gonna ask again!" I raised my voice.
"Fine Makinsey! If you just have to know everything! You think you do any way so you wann know? Hm?" Then he said the least unexpecting words I never thought he would say after I pushed him before. "Its because I admire you Makinsey. You one person I cant understand, your one person thats not afraid to back down form me," He was about to continue and I noticed every time he said something he would get closer to me and at the position we were now he was like two or three inches from my face."And most of all your strong yet not scared." I was really wondering what he was doing now because at this moment our noses were touching.
Then I said something I wish I hadnt said. "Will you ever admit it?" I was thinking it in my mind but it came out.
"Admit what?" He said confused yet he knew what I was talking about but he didnt want to say it.
"I-Im sorry...Uh nevermind. I really need to get to B block." I said in a nervous like way.
"Makinsey.......I may not be a close friend and we have crossed bad paths but I can see something in your eyes, your eyes that just aint quite right." He said very gentle like
