Chapter 10-
Makinseys Pov
"Ryan I cant do this" I said looking away from him.
"Then why did you kiss back?" He said with a tone of confusion and anger.
"I.....I dont know." I said a bit confused myself.
"Hmm. Well why dont you figure it out and tell me when you know" He said with a feeling of hurt and anger.
"Ryan......." I tried to say but he had already started to walk away. I just stood there in the two shoes I didnt want to be in. I would rather be in some superstars shoes or one of my friends but not mine. And by that I mean.......I wish that I was somebody else but me.
I was looking at the faded green colored leaves watching as they fell and thinking about hom many times I have hurt people. Ryan, Justin, probally my friends. I had told Justin exactly what Ryan just said to me. Ryan hurt me when he said that and now I see the hurt that I gave Justin when I told him those same words.
"I do understand but anyway.....why dont you call me when you do know why you fucked Alec. K? Bye."
I understood. The hurt, the pain, and misery I put him through. I probally would never feel the same way around him like before but somehow I will make things work. If he wants to continue our relationship then so be it. I wouldnt doubt him a bit if he walked away and never talked to me again because I know......how it feels.
Ryans Pov.
Why the heck are girls so messed up? She wants to be with Justin, she wants to hurt him, she wants to kiss me? They confuse me so much. As much as I hate to see her hurt I couldnt NOT stay away from her. Eventually I would wander my way back to her......and if it was Justin then I would be happy. Its her choice. As much as I like her........if she wants Justin then I will let her go, and walk away.
I walked to my house and seen a note from my mom.
To Ryan:
Hey dear I am working late tonight so keep yourself busy. You can go to a friends house or something. I will probally be home around one aclock in the morning. Sorry its so late. I will try to make it up to you. :)
I read. She acted as working late was a crime. I was used to her not being around. Ever since my dad died it become an everyday thing so its pretty normal. I hated staying home by myself but I work through it.
Makinseys Pov-
I walked down the road until I got to Ryans house. I needed to apoligize to him plus I needed to now Justins adress so.......yea. I finally reached his house after seeing him there a couple of times I memorized where it was. I rung the door bell and he opened it.
"Hey Ryan look im sorry."
"It fine Makinsey."
"No its not! I hurt you."
"Not really. I understand that you like Justin and that some people as in me and you should just stay on the friends base."
"Yea....Maybe. Look I dont know what I want but I need to tell you what I came here to tell you. When I kissed you and you told me to figure out why I kissed you......I felt the same hurt that I gave Justin because I told him the same thing. I told him to figure out why he screwed me over and then fucked Alex and know I need to apologize to him Ryan. I hurt him in so many ways and I dont know if I can ever get him to forgive me....I may be some "Believe in love and fairy tales" kinda girl and im trying to aplogize to my prince but......I cant do anything when he is broken to peices by the hurt and pain that I gave him."
