Authors note: Thanks for the answers guys! *Sarcasm* You can read this, or u can just ignore this book, but either way I'm gonna finish it. It still hurts to know that none of yall really care. There's only two people out there who support me with this book. For real, and they know who they are. One person actually was willing to help me out in order to finish it, and that just showed me so much. At least some out there cares. And thank you. I'm not naming names, but she is the one got me to update today. :)
Makinsey's Pov-
You ever feel like your riding a roller coaster in life? Its got its up, and downs, but it never stops. Well at least mine don't. I have this.....this emptiness that remains in my body every single day. It's like the flu. It comes back on certain days, and it goes away on certain days. Sometimes I'm so happy, and then sometimes I wanna die. I don't understand this twisted mis-understanding of a life I have. I let my thoughts pile up, and pile up. They either pile up into one great, big, helpful thought, or they pile up into a squashed peanut-butter, and jelly. My recent thought actually triggered something in me though. It gave me a warning. I may of been day dreaming because I tend to do that a lot, but it didn't seem fake. Every outcome that I pointed out, became reality. Nothing could stop what was heading my way. I knew it was something.......something big, but that's absolutely all. I wish God could give me some better clue. One that helped me direct my future, but of course that's not gonna happen. Everything ends, and some how......I'll just have to end this thought. No, no! I can't end it. It's stuck there. I have to over-come it. Over-some it like it's nothing. Because hopefully it is nothing..........
"Makinsey." I hear someone call out.
I space out my inner-feelings, and look over at Caitlin.
"Yea?" I answer quite lowly.
"Are you ok? Ever since yesterday......you've been so..............gone. And your really pale. Maybe we could go out, and get a spray tan, or get or hair done!"
"No." I say very seriously. Nothing is gonna change my mind. I don't have anything to look forward to, so why should I try. It doesn't make since.
"Hey babe." Chaz walks in stretching. I give him a weak smile, hoping that he wouldn't recognize my sad atmosphere thats been drowning we.
He nods, and walks over to the cabinet. The thing I love so much about Chaz, is he can't understand me so much. He can't tell my hidden emotions. Justin walks in, and I look away. He can tell my emotions, and considering what happened yesterday, plus the whole emotion thing....I don't really wanna talk to him. AT ALL. I hear the clatter of cups, and I close my eyes. I've never felt this tired, and exhausted. I get up, and slowly walk to the front door, trying to decide if I wanna do this or not. I nod to myself, and start to walk out.
"Where are you going?" Chaz asks. I sigh, and look back at him.
"For a walk. Anyone wanna join?" I ask, but not hopefully. I kinda wanna walk alone. I hear no reply, so I start to walk back out the door.
"You know what I'll come. I wanna take a walk." Justin smiles, and I can tell he's trying to get something out of this little walk. Whether it's a response to what happened yesterday, or a chat about our relationship..............he'll get it. Well he thinks he will. But I'm not letting in that easy. I'll just ignore him. I smiled back, except mine was fake. Totally fake. I walk out the door with Justin follows, putting his coat on. I don't know why he'd need one. It's like seventy degrees out here. I crossed my arms for comfort, and started walking into the woods. Normally when I walk with Justin there's always a comfortable silence, but this time it's just..........awkward. I look in the other direction trying to stall any kind of conversation that might possibly happen. I see Justin open his mouth to talk, and I try to find a way out quickly.
"Lets go this way." I say quickly, and his mouth goes back to closed with no words escaping. I start speed walking, just in case he tries to talk again. I feel his eyes on me, and suddenly realize that he's right beside me once again. I swiftly pull my fingers through my hair, and strt to jog.
"I wanna get some running in if you don't mind." I call back, and begin running as fast as my feet can go. Justin must of started running to because I seen his hands swing back and forth as he ran beside me. I turned another way, and began running that way. I didn't get far though, because as soon as I started to get far through another path of woods, a arm held onto my arm. Geez I thought I had lost him! I turned around expecting Justin, but it wasn't him. It was a man wearing a black mask, striped shirt, and dirty jeans. I gasped as the man pulled out a gun, and I look back searching every direction to get a sight of Justin, but the last thing I saw was a man rushing toward me, when it went black.
AN: Short? I know but guys I want vomments, and I no this sounds harsh, but until I get votes, comments, and more followers..............I'm gonna do what I want even if it is just a few words, and chapters. I know I wont get the amount of comments on this, but it would be nice if at least 1 person commented even if it was mean. Jk I don't like mean comments, but if their is anything I need to know about my writing then tell me. I may take it a bit hard but I'll get over it. If my chapters are bad then tell me. If they need to be more descriptive then tell me. I don't mind.
