The Drummer's Heart (Son of Christian "CC" Coma)

➳ Chapter 65 - Letters

*A week later*

[CC's POV]

"I'm glad the Bates continue to take care of it," Cayden smiled as we enter the cemetery, Johnnie holding his hand.

Hannah held my hand as she wlked next to me, holding Josie in her other arm.

After Hannah and I came back from our honeymoon, we all decided to go pay Josefina a visit, especially with the 2nd anniversary of her death is upon us.

Mr. and Mrs. Bates have been the ones taking care of her grave ever since Cayden

"Looks great," I smiled as we admired the white stone angel statue that stood as Josefina's tombstone, flowers planted or placed around it.

Cayden took a deep breath before he and Johnnie walked ahead.

"You coming?" Hannah asked.

"I'll catch up," I nodded. "I need a bit of a moment."

She smiled and nodded before walking over behind Cayden and Johnnie.

I then decided to pull out the letter Josefina left for me. I read it already, realizing it was a letter she wrote long ago, when Cayden was little, but I guess never had the courage to mail it to me.

I reread it a lit, and somehow feel like I found some sort of closure with this letter.

I looked down to read it again.

Christian,

I can't even remember how many times I've written this letter, trying to find the right things to say. Words won't even begin to describe how sorry I am for abandoning you. But I had to, for all the right reasons, or at least what I thought was right.

We have a son. His name is Cayden, and he is like you in so many ways...
He's happy... playful... smart... funny.... caring.... he even loves playing drums, just like you.

I wanted to tell you when I first found out I was pregnant, but my parents would have hurt him, and you... And you and your band already had that record deal.... A baby would have kept you from accomplishing your dreams.

That's why I chose to run away. I couldn't do this to you. I was just the small, weak girl who gets abused and can never stand up for herself.

Now, Cayden is 10, and I want him to know about you, and I understand if you don't believe me, but I wanted you to still know the truth.

Maybe one day, if I even have the courage to get this letter to you, we can see each other again, and together or not, we can still be able to raise Cayden, watch him grow up and live his life happily.

I also must confess that.... I always loved you, Christian... And I don't regret anything from that party, because in the end something great came from it.

But you deserve so much better than me... I could never be enough for you, and that's why I hope you one day you find someone who can love you and make you smile everyday, because your smile can always brighten anyone's day. I know even during my darkest days, even seeing you smile a tiny bit made me happy.

Hopefully we can still be great friends like always, who share something great.

I am sorry for dropping these news on you after so long. I hope one day we can at least be friends, just like before, only to now share something beautiful and great.

I hope to hear from you soon.

Sincerely,

Josefina