The Girl He Never Noticed

Wear something else for a change

I walk downstairs and peak to see if Ryder was gone. It was just my brother and me now. "Cameron. How come you never are around when my friends are here?" He asked raising and eyebrow. I stayed quiet sitting on the counter. I didn't know what to say or how to say it. I decided to tell him what I did to change the subject. "Michael, I did something bad." I rolled up my sleeves and took off the gauze. "Cameron. Why would you do this again. We've talked about this. You always come to me if you feel like this." He said holding me. "Because he never notices me." I whispered. "What? What do you mean?" "I like someone. He's never noticed me. After 6 fucking years, still doesn't know who I am." I said crying. "I'm sorry baby sis. I still love you though. And I am here for you if you wanna talk about him. But just a quick question." He said pulling back. I raised an eyebrow. "Who's the guy you like?" My cheeks turned pink. I looked down and played with my fingers. "Someone that you know. But I'm not saying any names." I said. I went up stairs to my room. As I got in my room I locked my door and laid on my bed. I thought about Ryder. The way he smiles. The way he laughs. The way he does anything. I love the stupidest things about him. Like how he sags his pants. I like his acne and even though that sounds weird it true. I love him. I've known his for almost what seems like my while life. But yet he doesn't know me. He never thinks of me. He doesn't know my name. He doesn't know what I look like. I'm just that girl that stands in the same place everyday looking at him. Everytime he would smile, I would think oh shit. Because I would fall deeper in love with him.

I snap out of my thoughts when I hear my alarm go off. Another night without sleep again. I walked over to my bathroom and do my routine again. Wearing a nother sweatshirt and skinny jeans.

I walked outside with my back pack and walked to school.

(AT SCHOOL AND NOW SHIT IS ABOUT TO GET REAL)

I walked into my first period which was math. I walked to my seat in the back of the class. I put my hoodie over my head and looked down starting the work that was on the board. As the bell rang the teacher came in. "Class we have a new student joining us today." When I look up. It was Ryder. "Now you may go sit next to Cameron over there in the back." Said Ms. Smith. And may I say, our desks were two desks connected. So he was going to be real, close. As he walked over I just froze. He sat down next to me. "Hey Ma. I guess we're partners now." He said winking. My breath hitched just at his voice. I blushed like crazy. "So class today we are learning about The Triangle Factory." She said. Ryder looked at me smirking. "You don't talk much do you huh Lil ma?" He whispered over to me. I shook my head starting to draw on my paper. Soon after Ms.Smith got done talking about how the man who owned the Triangle Factory was sexist, the bell finally rang. I gathered all my stuff as quickly as I could, running to my next class.

*after school*

After school I walked home. I didn't even go straight up to my room  I went to the kitchen grabbing a water, looking down at my phone I ran into who I thought was my brother. "Watch where the fuck your going Michael." I said, looking up I saw a shirtless Ryder. "So she does talk. But why are you I Michael's house?" He asked. Then Michael came in. "Oh Ryder this is my little sister Cameron." Said Michael. I ran upstairs to my room, locking the door and siting on my bed. Then I got up to change into on of Michaels old sweatshirts that are big on me and then a pair of joggers. I heard a knock on my door. "Hey Cameron we are ordering Chinese you want the usual?" Michael said through the door. "No I'm not hungry, thanks though." I said laying on my bed. I stayed there listening to wolf in sheep's clothing. I started singing along. " So could you, Tell me how you're sleeping easy. How you're only thinking of yourself. Show me how you justify. Telling all your lies like second nature. Listen, mark my words one day (one day). You will pay, you will pay. Karma's gonna come collect your debt." I more screamed. "Cameron shut the hell up!" I heard Michael yell. I rolled my eyes, even though he can't see me. I started to actually sing quietly. After I got done singing I look up and saw Michael and Ryder staring at me. I blushed deeply. "Cameron. I didn't know you liked to sing. But please shut the fuck up we are trying to play GTA." Michael said going back down stairs. Then it was just me and Ryder. "You should wear something else for a change. Ya know instead of sweatshirts 24-7." Ryder said leaving and slamming my door shut making me jump. I quickly got my phone out and called Madison. "Hello?" She answered. "Guess who's over right now and guess who is talking to me now. And now notices me?" I asked. She screamed through the phone. "OMG I SHIP IT!!!" She screamed still. "He came up to my room with Michael and told me that I should start wearing new clothes. So if you want to we can go shopping on Friday?" "Yes omg I can't wait to give you your make over!" She said. I laughed and said bye then hung up.

*Skips to Friday cause I can*

Me and Madison got to the mall and immediately go to Forever21. "Okay so you need eyeshadow, mascara, lipstick, and foundation but we can get that at Sephora. So what look you wanna go for? The bad girl vibe?" She asked. I shrugged my shoulders. "Okay we could just go complete girly like me." She smirked I shook my head as fast as I could. We laughed and went and got me clothes and makeup. After we got done like two hours later in forever21 we were on our way to that make up place, until we ran into Ryder, my brother, and their friends. "Hey Cameron. Guys this is my little sister Cameron." Michael said. I looked down putting my hoodie over my head. "Awe don't be shy." Said one of his friends. His name was Dylan. They started to be really loud and I started to shake. I hate being surrounded by people and feel like i can't get out while they're loud. "Please stop yelling." I said quietly. "WHAT WHAT WAS THAT CAN'T HEAR YOU YOU ARE BEING TO QUIET!" Dylan yelled at me. I started to shake even more while they laughed. Even Michael laughed and this wasn't like him. I started to hyperventilate, wanting this to stop. "Hold up Cameron are you okay?" Ryder said. I looked up, starting to see black dots. "H-h-help m-me." I stuttered before passing out.