What Am I To You

Chapter 10

So sorry that I haven't updated in ages but I was sooo busy with school and the first two months were sort of rough for me. I promise that I will update more often from now on^^ Have fun reading the next chapter!

Ugh just leave me alone, I moaned as I threw one of my pillows at my alarm clock and it landed on the floor with a loud thud. I am not going to school today or tomorrow or ever again and I covered my head with my blanket so that I looked like the dying soul that I was. Yes my soul and heart were dying from heartache and the only thing that I wanted to remember from yesterday was Eunsol and crying myself to sleep. 

"Honey, it's time for school. Why aren't you up yet?" My mom cooed as she walked into my room.

"Ugh." was all I managed to say from under my blanket.

"Yoona, whats wrong?" She asked and came to sit at the edge of my bed.

"Nothing, I just don't feel well." I lied and turned to face the wall. My mom touched my forehead to check for a fever but of course she would find not even the slightest rise in body temperature.

"Well you don't have a fever, and you look fine to me. Are you sure there's not something else bothering you honey?" my mom asked as she gently stroked my hair. Aish she had always been able to see right through me. "It's nothing with your boyfriend is it?"

"Can we not talk about him."

"Ahh...I see. You know you can tell me anything Yoona."

"Mom I said I dont wan't to talk about it!" The memories from yesterday were beginning to flood my mind and the painful images were bringing tears to my eyes. 

"Alright, alright. I'll leave you alone and call the school to let them know that you won't be coming today."

"Or tomorrow, or the day after that, or the day after that." I added and sunk even deeper into my mattress hoping that it would swallow me whole and take all the pain away. 

Just as my mom was about the close the door to my room she turned around and said "You know Yoona, my mother once told me that forgiveness is the final form of love. Whatever Taehyung did I am sure that he is suffering just as much as you are." and she closed the door leaving me to my thoughts and broken heart.

I heard her words ringing in my head. Forgiveness is the final form of love. As if. I'm never going to forgive him. I was a bet to him. A stupid bet and he used me like I was nothing. I will never forgive him. 

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 I stayed in my room the whole day trying to take my mind off of that asshole Taehyung. Eunsol called me and told me what I had missed in school. She also asked me if I was going to vocal and I gasped as I had completely forgotten about that. Aghh I have vocal today. That means that I have to go to school and 'he's' probably going to be there. No Yoona, don't think like that. You are not going to let some stupid guy get the better of you and make you feel this worthless. You have auditions for SM Entertainment in two weeks and nothing is going to stop you from getting in. I am going to vocal and getting into SM. 

Just as I was about to get up and get dressed my phone buzzed. It was a text from Jimin.

Yoona, I know that you are hurt right now and you probably don't want to talk to me or anyone but you have to hear this. Taehyung knows that what he did was wrong. We all know that what we did was wrong and we are so so sorry Yoona. We never should have started the stupid bet and we never should have dragged you into it. You are probably thinking what a jerk Taehyung is and how he never loved you but he did. He loved and still loves you so much Yoona and he never wanted to hurt you. He didn't show up to school today and I went to check on him. He trashed his room and was crying when I went in. Crying. Taehyung never cries but he cried for you Yoona. He is really depressed and knows that you will probably never forgive him but please just think about it and try and find it in your heart to forgive him. You loved him too Yoona and I can't stand to see him so depressed. Please Yoona, please try to forgive Tae.  - Jimin 

Ha depressed. As if. I didn't answer the message and got ready for vocal. I plugged in my earphones as I was walking to school but the words that my mom had said and that Jimin had written and  wouldn't want to leave my mind. Forgiveness is the final form of love. He trashed his room. He loves you. Please find it in your heart to forgive him.