What Am I To You

Chapter 12

Okay so first of all I would like to apologise to everyone who has been waiting for the next chapter. Mianhe! It's just that I'm currently in 11th grade and am busy with the IB so I had to prepare for sooooo many exams. But I have some time now because it's summer break so enjoy the next chapters to find out how Yoona and Taehyung's love story will end.^^

Today was the day. The day that would determine the rest of my life. Today was the day of the SM Auditions and where it would be decided whether I would continue on the path of an idol by joining SM Rookies and becoming apart of the SM Family or whether I would have to find a new dream to pursue.

My palms were sweating as I stood in the long endless seeming line where we had to present our ID's and papers. Luckily Eunsol was with me so that she could Hand in my forms just in case I was struck with a last minute panic attack and had a full blackout. 

"Stop stressing Yoona. Everything will be fine." Eunsol tried to console me but it wasn't helping. "Oh look, I see your parents and your sister. They are already sitting down." She started waving to my parents and Hyerin who had already seated themselves in the third row from the front. Of course they insisted on coming early because my mom wasn't going to miss her daughters first audition for an Entertainment company and she was planning of filming it all as well. Typical.

I waved to my parents slightly and shuffled forwards as the line moved. There were so many other young people here full of potential and doubts started to form in my mind whether I was good enough or not. On top of all that I hadn't been able to tell Taehyung that I love him and forgive him because how was I supposed to crawl out of my house in the middle of the night and roam the streets of Seoul, hoping to make it to the audition alive the next morning. I'm not talking about dying outside though  or being struck by lightning. I am talking about something much worse; the raging mother that would have been waiting for me back at home.

So there I was waiting in the line to my future and constantly looking around for the only face that I wanted to see that day.

"You're looking for him aren't you?". Eunsol asked after she noticed the weird notions of my neck. "Why don't I call his friends and give them a hint that he should swing by."

"No. He said he would come. But I guess it's too late now." I looked down at my shoes.

"Oh Yoona, don't think like that. I know your breakup was probably one of the worst ones out there because he lied to you but you love him and he still loves you so don't give up hope. I'm sure he hasn't forgotten his promise and if he really truly loves you then he will show up." Eunsol hugged me tightly and I fought back the tears.

"Thanks."

. . .

I had handed in my papers and now stood backstage with all of other boys and girls. Some seemed perfectly calm whilst others had worried faces. We were all going to perform different songs, dances or rap but the one thing that we all had in common was that we were all hoping to become trainees. We were all hoping that this day would change our lives. 

The auditions had already begun and I was number ten meaning that there were still three people in front of me until it was my turn. I could see the CEO and other members of SM Entertainment seated higher than the audience with earplugs in their ears listening to our voices. This was the first time that the auditions were held in the open and that people were allowed to come and watch. Of course it made it a hundred times more nerve-wracking but then again if you did well and were remembered you had a higher chance of gaining fame and probably of debuting. 

"Number nine!" The lady with the headset called and my heart began to beat faster. After this it was my turn. No going back now. 

Several minutes passed but it seemed like a number of seconds to me and soon I was called up. I held my head up high as I walked onto the stage in front of my friends, family and many other unknown faces. You can do this Yoona. You practised so hard and you are going to ace it. 

"Annyeonghaseo, jeoneun Kang Yoona-imnida."

I took a deep breath and scanned the audience one more time. Suddenly my eyes stopped upon the face I was looking for this whole time. He had come. He had actually come. Tears formed in my eyes as our gaze interlocked and I wanted to tell him all of the things that I couldn't say yesterday. 

"You may begin now." The CEO said and I was forced to take my eyes off of Taehyung and sing the song that I had practised so long for. I began and as the first words escaped my mouth I found new strength and aced my performance just like I had planned to all along.

.  .  .

I ran as fast as I could past all of the backstage workers and straight into his arms. Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I buried my face in his shoulder.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I mumbled as I sobbed endlessly.

"What do you mean you're sorry. Yoona you have nothing to be sorry for, I'm the one who's sorry. I was an asshole. I shouldn't have done what I did and I'm so sorry that I hurt you. Can you ever forgive me?" Tae said as he stroked my hair.

I looked up at him and saw that he had tears in his eyes. Lifting myself on my toes I wrapped my arms around his neck and kissed him. He kissed me back and in that moment we both knew that we were meant for each other.

"I love you." I whispered as we broke apart.

"I love you too." He said and embraced me even tighter. 

.  .  . 

The rest of the day was a buzz. I brought Taehyung over to my parents and introduced him to them. My mom was glaring at him at first but she soon opened up when she realised that I was her normal little girl again all smiling and happy. And I was. I was the happiest girl in the world in that moment because I had my family with me, my audition had been successful and I had Tae back. What more could I have asked for. After watching around five more auditions my dad took us all out to dinner. Eunsol had disappeared for some time after she had seen Tae and I kissing but had tactfully reappeared once the coast was clear and once she saw that we had made up. So the six of us all had dinner a korean bbq restaurant near my house and celebrated my successful audition. 

A few weeks later my mother called me right in the middle of class making me jump up from my seat. 

"Sorry!" I said, "but I think I have to take this." I told the teacher as  squeezed out of the room. My heart was pounding and my ears were ringing. My mom said she would call me if anything from SM arrived and why else would she be calling me in the middle of the day if it wasn't about my audition. I heard the door slide open behind me. It was Tae.

"Who called you?"

"My mom. I canceled on her but I'm going to call her back now. What if it's about the audition? What if I didn't make it?" My voice was beginning to rise as were my anxiety levels. Joining SM Entertainment was my dream and I couldn't bear to think that my dreams could be crushed during one simple phone call.

"Don't worry, you'll be fine." Tae reassured me as he took my phone from my hands and pressed the recall button for my mom's number.

"Yeoboseyo, eomma? Is everything okay?" I spoke into the phone quietly. Suddenly my mom'S voice exploded into my ear.

"Ahhhh Yoona-ahhh! Omo omo omo, YOU MADE IT. I'M SO PROUD OF YOU, YOU PASSED THE AUDITIONS. YOU'RE ACCEPTED INTO SM ENTERTAINMENT. THE LETTER CAME TODAY!!!!!!!"

I couldn't believe what I was hearing. My head was spinning. I...made....it....into...SM....WHAT!!!???? My senses returned to me and I screamed back into the phone. "AHHHHH EOMMA JINJA!!!!!! I'M SO HAPPYYYYYY OMG I MADE I MADE IT, I CAN'T BELIEVE IT AHHHHHHH." 

"Araseo, araseo, I have to go and call your father to tell, him the news okay!? See you at home!" and my mom hung up one me. I think at this point she was more excited than I was. At that point Taehyung had understood that I had passed and he was staring at me with his box smile.

"Seeeee, I told you that you would pass. Nothing to worry about dummy." He said as he pulled me in closer wrapping his arms around my waist.

I let the scent of him fill my every inch of my body and in that moment I knew that the rest of my life was going to be perfect.