Stranger things: You changed me ||| future ||| ( Completed )

A emotional wreck chapter 9

God I love music with this book listen to the song above it helps the song above is like el and mikes problems in this book
Mikes pov

JESUS FUCKING CHRIST. (  ooo this chapter starting on 3 bueatiful words😂😂😂😂) I CANT BELIEVE I DID THAT. I thought I was getting better but I was wrong. I just started running out the door. I have no clue where I'm going. I just started running. Just running. I should surrender el to will. I'm causing so much damn damage it even hurts me. Will is basically perfect. And I'm a emotional wreck. I wish my mom never started drinking. And Nancy never left with my dad. And I never ran away.....  my mom is glad I'm gone. Just gives her more money. To buy the fucking substance that hurts her. Why did I do this to myself. Just why.... I have hella feelings for el ( see what I did there ( you will onley understand if you have heard the song idfc) I suck sm) and I just scream and yell at her. But it's always the same. I take my anger out on her, I feel hella bad, I do it again. Why did she have to find will. Why did she have to find me. I screwed up. I run out of breath and I've been running for who the hell knows how long. I see I'm beside a small area of woods. I turn around confused and I look around. OH GREAT IM LOST. JUST PERFECT. I turn back to the trees and I guess if I'm not around people will be happy. I start walking towards the woods. I just need time to think. And I usually just forget about this Shit and move on.

Els pov

I hope mikes ok. I don't know what has made me hope he's ok. After all he has done to me I should hope he rots in hell. But I still care about him. Something's wrong with me. " will" I say quietly. I shouldent ask him this question but I need his opinion. " let's say someone has done you wrong countless times and you still care about them what does that mean". He probably knows who I'm talking about already. He doesn't respond for about 5 mins. Finally he says " uh well.... you must really like the person. As a friend or as a lover". 

Mikes pov

I sit by a tree near the beginning of the woods.  So of course I would get lost. Mabye if I can find nancey.... fuck who am I kidding. She might be in New Mexico for all I know. But I'm not N-O-T going to my moms house. I hope she will show up somewhere. I wish I never yelled at el. I regret it so much. But I always fuck up again.

Els pov

It's been all night and I still haven't heard from mike. He usually will apologise. I guess he just needs Some space.

Mikes pov

I'm huddled up beside a tree. It's freezing cold but I sill sit there. I hear some leaves getting crushed. I look around and no ones in sight. I guess I'm just hearing things. I see a bright flash light in the distance. I see the light come closer to me. Mabye it's just a late night hunter. The lights shinning in my eyes. I can't see the figure at all. The flash light lowers and to my shock I see.

To be continued