Fucked Up

3 - By hook or by crook

PAUPER

I can't wipe off my smile when I sniff the air that has been surrounding me since I was an infant. I missed this place.

"Hey, Samantha. Ikaw na bahala rito ha. I have a lot of things to do" saad ko sa secretary ko na kasama ko sa pag-uwi rito

"Yes, miss" tanging sagot niya habang nakangiti

I put on my shades and ride the car in front of us.

I'd been to Australia for the past three years. We followed my sister who studied in there and my parents fell in love with the place kaya roon na rin nila ako pinatapos. I pursued my Business Ad course, and built a modeling agency that has its own mother agency here in my mother land. My sister runs it while I handle the one in Australia. And it's good to be back.

Dumiretso agad ako sa bahay from the airport to pack my things, again. Ako na lang ang nandito at ang caretaker dahil nasa Australia pa sina mommy at daddy. I don't think they will be back home soon.

With just my sock on, I jumped on my bed and opened my laptop. There's only one person on my mind right now, and it's no other than my best friend. I miss him so much. I stalked his social media while I am away.

Alexa and him didn't end up together. Her girlfriend for years, since college. The bitch married a man who's a loser, Nathan definitely is better than the man. I took a deep breath and rolled over to my back and placed the laptop on my stomach. Kapag siya naman ang usapan, siya lagi ang magaling.

Nathan Red, I squealed silently and zoom in his face. He age beautifully, he age backwards like a wine. The more it gets old, the better. This was from his last post two years ago, and since then he never posted. Swerte na lang kung may kukuha ng picture niya sa photoshoot na madalang din lang.

My love for him never change, a bit. And I will get into his system by hook or by crook. We're not getting any younger anymore, he is thirty and I am twenty-eight even tho we're blockmates for the past two years in the university. I am an accelerated student.

I am no longer a fool to just let him waste himself for the girl who is now married. I will have him. Sawa na ako sa pagiging best friend na lang. That's so silly of me, I will pushed myself to the man who don't love me. The irony.

We haven't contacted each other for the past years. Umiiwas ako sa social media ko at gumawa ng isang account to stalked him. Pati ang SIM ko, I will load it lang para hindi ma-deactivate and never answered his countless calls. I thought doing it would make him love me, he would see what he wasted, but no. He stopped and I am stupid for doing that to him. He needed me the most when they broke-up, and I left him with no words. Bumuntong-hininga ako bago nilapag sa kama ang laptop at tumayo.

I walked in to my closet to slide on my jacket and shorts. I locked the house and made my way to my office.

My sister was already here with her eyeglasses, reading some applications. May HR naman but she wants to be hands-on and detailed. I kissed her on the cheeks and slouch on the chair.

"How's the business going" I casually asked her as I crossed my legs, and read some contracts in her opened laptop. I tilted it a little to face the screen at me

"It's fine. Pabusy nga nang pabusy" she replied, I know she wear that gentle smile on her face

"Good to hear that" I saw her take off her glasses in my peripheral vision, and leaned back on her swivel chair