Fucked Up

35 - Lost (mature content)

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Wala akong ganang nakaharap sa laptop kung saan nag-vi-video call kami sa magulang ni Nathan. He's the one who talked and I am sitting like a display right beside him. He got clingy for the past weeks. He always wanted to make-out, and kissed whenever and wherever he likes, if I won't let him I will be the one who will get hurt. He is more stronger and bigger than I am, he can easily tie me up on the bed and grip my hands. Ayaw ko namang huminde at magkakapasa lang ako at magkakasakit, may anak na ako sa sinapupunan ko.

I can't even get him out of my sight for a few hours, nandiyan siya palagi sa tabi ko. Nangungulit, he's more demanding than I am. He changed. He is not the Nathan that I knew or he is but he didn't want me to know his true colors. They say people change when they've been hurt and if you will hurt them that's when you know who they are.

Hindi pa kami kasal, at wala akong balak na pakasalan siya. Kung ganito na ang inaasta niya ay natatakot ako para sa anak ko hindi sa sarili ko. He's getting obsessed and drown to the thought of marrying me. Araw-araw na lang, bukambibig niya.

Napalingon ako sa kanya nang pinisil niya ang hita ko at nginuso ang screen.

"Oh, Tita, Tito" mabilis kong sambit sa kanila

"Ikaw na kako ang mag-alaga sa unico hijo namin, Aigne. Practice na rin para sa kasal niyo" Nakangiting bilin ni Tita pero hindi ko man lang magawang ngumiti kundi tango

"Pagpahingahin mo na muna sila mahal, mukhang pagod silang dalawa. Pinagod mo ba Nathan?" Tumawa pa si Tito at ngumiti si Nathan sa tinuran ng ama niya

He did exhausted me yesterday, he reviewed the reports he got from their restaurant that he wanted me by his side. He lied on my lap while reading on his laptop he put on his stomach. He kept talking and asking me random questions when I am about to close my eyes, that my thighs get numb after he rosed up from his heavy weight and for sitting still in one place that I forgot to move.

"Bye na, Nathan, Aigne" Hindi na ako sumagot kina Tita at tumango uli

My eyes averted to my cellphone which is blinking, indicating I had a missed call. My sister just gave it to me the other day, when she doesn't see Red following me around anymore. It's been a week since I last saw him at our house. He never called nor texted me, I didn't even see his shadow at the place he usually go to.

Kinuha ni Nathan ang cellphone ko at napabuntong-hininga. He's invading my privacy now, unlike before. I quickly snatched my phone away from him and crawled out of bed to make some space for my privacy.

It's from Auntie, Red's mother. She also texted me that he didn't see his son for the past weeks nor went to their company to work. She's worried. I bit my lips and typed my reply to her that I didn't know his whereabouts, hastily.

Kinabahan ako bigla. Red won't do that to his family especially his mom. Kahit na mas daddy's boy siya ay mahal na mahal niya pa rin si Auntie. Mas naglalambing pa nga siya rito.

"Huwag kang aalis babe para hanapin siya" nanigas ako sa kinakatayuan ko nang marinig si Nathan sa may likuran ko.

Pinisil niya ang braso ko saka hinalikan ang balikat ko pataas sa batok. Kinikilabutan ako sa pinaggagawa niya. I have to endure all of this until I can finally see a way to leave him. I'm planning to leave him on our wedding, and sadly it fells to Ethan's birthday. Sinasadya niya.