What Love really means...

An annoying encounter

WARNING: THERE ARE A LOT OF CURSING WORDS. READ AT YOUR OWN RISK.

What is love? And what is the true meaning of it? How does it feel, when someone cared for you? Are you happy? Satisfied? Contented?

What is life? What is the meaning behind it? How can you say that you're living your life to the fullest? How can you say that you are actually living?

Is it money? A mansion? Luxury cars and branded clothes? Going on vacation and not give a damn about anything? Partying all night long? Can you call that living your life?

For me? I don't give a fvck. I don't care about love or life. I'm dead anyway, a long time ago. I am all alone in this world. I have no family and friends. I have so many rich relatives. But they don't care a damn about me. Because to those people, they see me as a burden. A heavy thing that will just take them down.

When we have a lot of money, all of my relatives smiled at me. They will offer me a lot of things such as new shoes and clothes. One of my uncles even boasted about giving me a full scholarship. And he will be the one who will pay for all of my school fees, as well as my school supplies.

I thought my life was perfect. I have everything I need. And my dad won't have to pay for my college. He can save enough money for our future.

But I didn't think that will everything will be taken away from us.

After that terrible incident, every one of my relatives disappeared. And from that moment I knew, the only people you can trust was your family.

My dad's business fluctuated now and then. Until it became bankrupt. I was waiting for my relatives to help my dad. But none of them offered to help him.

Everything changed after that. My dad doesn't talk, eat and sleep. He became lifeless. The company was all that we have. He inherited it from my great grandfather. So, I know how upset he was of the outcome. I wanted to help him. But what can I do? What can a 10-year-old boy do at that time? Even my mom was devastated. They did everything they can for the sake of the company. But that time, they can't save it.

When I lost my family, no one even wanted to take me in. Not even one. I've live by myself and used all the money my dad left behind. At first, I managed to pay rent. But my money was not enough. Even if I took part-time jobs here and there, it didn't suffice. I still have to pay for the electricity and water bill. So, in the end? They force me to get out of the apartment.

Now, I'm all alone. With nothing but some clothes and pictures of my family that I managed to save.

When I'd realized I have nothing left, I asked my self;

Where will I go from here? What should I do? Where will I sleep? How will I eat? Can I survive living in the street?

And the worst thing I ask myself was, what if I just kill myself?

It will be better if I just end my life. Besides, no one even cares about me. Might as well I leave this damn world.