My life is a mess.
I wanted to die.
I wanted to end my life.
But then she came.
And because of her, I've found Him.
And I didn't know that I'll say this again...
I'm so glad that I'm alive.
Everything was confusing and I don't know where to start. I want so badly to ask questions and to clarify a lot of things. But my mind is blank. I know it is stupid of me to come here and trust her.
But what choice do I have? I have nowhere to go. I have no home. I have nothing but my sanity intact.
Even if I have questions, maybe she can't answer all of them.
Because all of them are gone.
No one will clarify the things that are bothering me until now. No one.
Habang naglalakad kami iginala ko ang mata ko sa kabuuan ng bahay. Ang disenyo ng mansion na 'to ay Mediterranean. I know a little about mansions because I've been to so many mansions back when I have everything. The large exterior windows reflect the sunlight just right that it's like the path I am walking right now will take me to someplace where I'll be safe. I can't see the roof but I am sure of the structure of the house. But there is some Filipino furniture I saw like a wooden chair that rocks back and forth, and some wooden chair with three seats back, is that what it is called? I don't know.
This is the first time that I am not scared of anything. And it scares me to think that maybe Jam was right. That once I became familiar with this mansion, I won't be able to get out. I won't be able to leave.
I used to own a big mansion but I think this is way bigger than ours. I forgot what a real mansion looks like. Being on the streets for quite some time, made me forget all the things I have in the past.
I am just glad that I didn't lose my mind. I can still think straight. But I think after being with this girl, I am going to be crazy.
Jam stops walking and in front of her or rather, in front of us is a big wooden door that has a flower design right at the center of it, I guess? I was busy looking around the whole house that is spacious and maybe there's a lot of rooms in here more than I can count.
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She opened it and I stayed right outside. I don't want to intrude or anything. I want to leave right away. Because I am beginning to have hope. And it sucks to feel that way when I'm all alone.
I saw that it's quite big even I am just at the door. What kind of room is this anyway? I think it's a mini-library because I can see some books on the shelves at the top of a desk.
