Kpop Fanfic | Short Stories

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You felt someone staring at you. Looking up, you found Namjoon particularly, staring or was he spacing out? He was in deep thoughts that he didn't even realised that you were looking back at him.

When the realization finally got him, he smiled and shook his head, turning back to his PC screen.

"What?" You chuckled.

You knew your best friend, better to know that he wanted to say something and was debating himself.

"Nothing." Namjoon said, continuing his work.

You visited his studio regularly as the two of you worked on a lot of songs together. It had always been fun working with Namjoon. You always loved being around him.

"What is it?" You whined, kicking his chair.

Giving up, he turned to face and you sat in anticipation, waiting to know what was in his mind.

"I was wondering how long we have known each other."

You blinked, before answering him. "Since high school? So about 5-6 years. Why?"

"It's the first time I realize how you are always around me." He said, playing with his fingers.

Your heart stopped for a second and your mind felt dizzy. "So? Do you hate it?"

"No." Namjoon said quickly to avoid any kind of misunderstanding. "I was just thinking that you, being close to me is the reason why you don't have a boyfriend till now."

You rolled your eyes and looked at your MacBook. "I don't want a boyfriend." You said, finger rushing heavily over the keyboard.

You stopped when Namjoon didn't say anything. Half turning, you shot him a small smile. "Don't worry Namjoon. I'm just not ready to have a boyfriend now. It's just me, it has nothing to do with you."

"Why?"

"Why would I?" You snapped, spontaneously. Was he really going to be like this now?

"Because you deserve to be loved, Y/N."

"Look! This is so worried, talking about this stuff with you." You chuckled forcefully, wanting to end this story.

"I'm worried about you."

"Worry about yourself, Namjoon" You looked at him, face red. You felt heat rushing under your skin. If he kept pushing you like this, you would end up confessing, and this was the last thing you wanted.

"If you hate it that I'm around, tell me." You said, collecting your stuff. "I will make sure to have a distance."

After 7 years of being best friends, you couldn't believe that you were saying that. Your friendship had been one of the best, but it had been distracted ever since Namjoon got a girlfriend.

Which was a great shock to you. You took a couple of weeks to adjust to the new changes. Namjoon hang less with you, he didn't contact you like he used to, he stopped his sudden ice cream party at night and it felt all your friendship was because of work now.

And that made you discover how much you actually liked Namjoon. You couldn't tell him that you didn't have a boyfriend because you had feelings for him. It would make things worse.

"Y/N, wait." Namjoon caught your arm, stopping you from leaving. "I didn't mean it like this."

"Whatever you meant." You said, pulling your arm from his grip. "Tell your girlfriend that she shouldn't concern herself with me. I'm not going to steal you away. I can handle my own feelings well."

Namjoon pressed his lips into a line. Words seemed to have ended in his mind as his mouth opened but nothing was coming out.

"I have to go." You turned to leave. There was no meaning in staying. But once you made it out of his studio, tears streamed down your cheeks.
You had been keeping this to you so that you wouldn't lose him.

You hid your feelings.

You didn't want to lose him. You couldn't lose him.

But you did.

You knew that your friendship would never be the same.