Kpop Fanfic | Short Stories

Behind my smile | Ken

"You had always been the reason behind my smile. Thank you for making me smiling. For making me beautiful."
It's all started with an accident. An accident that never meant to happen.
It wasn't bad though.
It somehow healed a lot of pains.
It felt like a new start. A new life.

It had been a while since you met guys and went out with them after you last broke up and you weren't ready for new one but he changed everything in your mind. Like a guardian angel, he appeared before your eyes suddenly and you poured all your drink over him. Fortunately you weren't fan of hot drinks.
Your eyes widened as the guilt wear you. You started to panic reaching for any napkin near you.
"Oh god, I'm so sorry. I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to... oh god" not everything lucky in this world. His shirt that was soaked with your drink was a white shirt and it looked expensive.
"Don't worry, I'm okay. I'll be fine." A smile curved and eyes looking at you, like nothing had never happened.
"No it's not okay it look expensive." You exclaimed worriedly.
"Don't worry, I'm not going to ask you to buy me a new one" he chuckled, his smile moved something inside of you. Something that you forgot that it even existed.
You held your own hands shyly as you smiled for the first time in 3 years. Everything seemed to be living and bright again. "You are so kind" your eyes was barely opened as it closed whenever you smile.
Before leaving, he smiled at you and bowed. That's when your mind went blank.
~~
You were laying on your bed, couldn't get rid of his smiling angelic face. His sweet words kept ringing in your ears. But it made you feel guiltier. That you should have done something about his shirt.
You buried your face into your pillow in disappointment. "I should have asked about his name at least."
The next day was your first day in your work. You started to work as a makeup artist and stylist in an entertainment. You weren't interested in music and groups. All you knew is that you were going to work with a boys group who had made their debut 2 years ago.
You took a deep breath before entering the company building.
"Y/N!!" A voice called you. It was the former stylist that you were going to take her place. She was pregnant and needed someone to take her place for the next 6 months. The group that she works with had a world tour and she couldn't travel with them so she chose you for this work.
"Mrs. Kim" You bowed at her. "Good morning."
"Good morning dear. So are you ready?" she asked.
"Yes ma'am" you said in excitement. It was your dream since you were kid to be a stylist and now the dream came true. You had been studying for the past 2 years to reach where you were now. You felt proud of yourself for the first time.
"Y/N" Mrs. Kim called you.
"Yes?" You breathed when you realized that you had been holding your breath for a while now.
"Don't be nervous" she said patting your arms and then she smiled. "And we are here." She looked beside her at a door and your eyes followed her.
You held your breath again and let it go freely before following Mrs. Kim inside the room. You were looking at the ground, as you were nervous.
"So this is your new stylist until I comeback." Mrs. Kim said her hand pushing your back forward, you stepped two steps and then slowly looked up at them. They were unexpectedly so tall. It surprised you
"My name is Y/N. Please take care of me." You said and bowed.
"She's cute. You can call me oppa" the shortest member said.
"I think you don't need to comeback." The tallest member said.
"Yah, when I comeback I'm going to do the worst hair style to you" Mrs. Kim yelled which ended up with all the members laughing except one.
"We met again." A voice snapped you to his direction. You couldn't forget this voice. You looked to see the person who you wanted to meet again. So he's an idol, no wonder he's so handsome.
"annyeonghaseyo, I'm Y/N" You bowed with a smile.
"What's this? Do you know each other?" Mrs. Kim asked confused.
"We meet coincidently yesterday" you explained
"Yeah and my shirt was soaked with her drink" He chuckled remembering the little accident.
"Sorry" you whispered.
"Now, now. It's your turn guys to introduce yourselves." Mrs. Kim said.
"I'm the leader Hakyeon, cha hakyeon. Call me N oppa" The shortest guy said.
"I'm the main vocal Leo" The never smiling member said.
"I'm hongbin." a guy with a cute dimples said.
"I'm the rapper Ravi" A guy full of swag said
"I'm the maknea, hyuk" the tallest one said
"I'm the cutie main vocal, ken" The one that you really wanted to know his name said finally and his fingers formed a peace sign.
"Now you can return to your practice." Mrs. Kim said.
"We want to sit with her a little longer. We need to know each other." N snorted.
"Stop fooling around" Their manger said taking them to their practice room.
You watched them leaving when you felt hands over your shoulder, "Dating is forbidden in this company." Mrs. Kim said. "But remember that your feelings are the most important."
She patted your shoulder before she left the room.
Feeling? Huh? It could have saved me before. You scuffed.
You remembered your past relationship which snapped you back to your right mind. The mind that didn't want to experience the same pain again, twice.
~~
The next day, you went to your work Mrs. Kim wasn't there as she was resting at home. You were somehow nervous and worried it was your first time to work for an idol or to have a job in general. It was an amazing chance for you.
You were walking through the hallways when you heard a powerful voice of someone singing. The voice was pure and refreshing and the song was nice. It warms ones heart once they listen to it.
What an amazing voice! You thought walking towards the voice's direction. You opened the door slowly as you glanced inside the room, trying hard not to make a voice.
The voice was leading you to it. You felt yourself being hypnotized as you stepped toward it. You stopped before the door gulping before holding the knop, opening it.
A heart beat skipped when you saw Ken was singing, his hands over his chest and his eyes closed. He was moving in a circular way that you wondered how he didn't feel dizzy yet. You sneaked inside closing the door, you sat over the ground, crossing your legs under you as you closed your eyes listening to his singing. You didn't know why but you felt yourself smiling as you were drawn in the lyrics of the song. It was fluttering song that gives you a happy and a warm feeling.
Your eyes opened slowly when you no longer heard singing or a voice. For your surprise Ken was looking at you with his angelic smile on his face.
"What do you think?" Ken asked approaching you.
You were trying to stand on your feet again when ken waved to you to keep sitting down comfortably on the floor, he even joined you. You smiled and said, "It was amazing. It felt as if I was living in the song"
"Really?!" Ken asked amused by your description. Normally people would answer, that his voice was nice and good and that he have singing skills but your answer was different as you were talking about the song itself.
"Yeah, I really love it. You have such a good taste in music."
"What about my voice?" Ken asked seeking for a complement.
"You're an idol and you introduced yourself as the main vocal so it would be normal if you sing well." You said sarcastically. Which leaded him to chuckle.
"Then Ken-ssi..."
"Jaehwan, Lee jaehwan" Ken cut you.
"Your real name?!" you asked confused and he nodded with a perfect smile and wink. "Then Jaehwan-ssi." You paused. "It's nice to meet you." you reached your hand for a hand shake which he took gladly. You pulled your hands awkwardly as a shiver ran through you once your hands made a contact with his. "I'll go now to check your schedule." You said standing on your feet followed by ken.
You reached your hands to open the door put stopped half the way and turned to look back at him. "Your shirt?" Ken gave you a confused look. "Two days ago. I'm sorry again"
"Ah about that" Ken said smiling waving on the air. "Don't worry about it. It's totally fine."
"It's a relief." You smiled to yourself before bowing and running out of the room to your work.
Cute. She's cute. Ken smiled to himself as he stretched his arms over his head.
~~
Later you and ken started to grow closer to each other. Whenever you meet him, there would be a ton of subjects to talk about and it became fun to be with him. For your own surprise, you started to smile more often than usual.
You though that you forgot how to laugh from all of your heart but it seemed like you didn't. Ken had always been the source of your beautiful smile and laughter. He was a good friend that you wouldn't want to lose ever. Even if that friend also knew how to make your heart flutter whenever you saw his smile, but there was something that scared you. That he would change.
It had been three months now since you first started working as VIXX hairstylist and makeup artist. You were preparing for VIXX concert last stage which was the most important part of the concert as the boys took seats waiting for their makeup to be done.
It was such a busy day since it was an important concert. It was hard day for you. Something seemed off. You were in a mess that you missed up many times doing your job probably. You were doing Hongbin's makeup when you did an eye different than an eye. Hongbin was already too nervous to handle your own nervousness too so he glared at you. From his gaze you knew that you screwed up for sure.
You tried so hard until you fixed his eyes makeup and gave him a bow with a hiss, "I'm sorry."
Hongbin bumped into your shoulder as he walked away with a noticed frown on his face. It was the first time hongbin treated you like this and somehow it brought back your bad memories of your ex-boyfriend. You bet your lower lips trying hard not to cry as you took a deep breath.
"Are you okay?" a sound behind you said but you didn't want to look at him. You knew if you looked at him you would break down, crying. You walked out of the room, trying to calm yourself.
"Hey, Y/N" Ken followed you out, you didn't made eye contact with him. "Is there something wrong?"
Ken noticed your hand balling into fist, he noticed your hitching breathing as you kept on biting your lips.
"Hey, Hey" He said holding your wrist turning your chin to look at him. "What's up?"
You took steps closer to him, hesitating to throw yourself in his chest crying or not. But his arms warped around you, encouraging you as you held his shirt crying in his chest. He rubbed your back with a hand and the other hand was stroking your hair, trying to comfort you.
He felt scarily safe. He felt home.
When you calmed down, he was about to say something but they called him up to the stage. He leaned and kissed your forehead and said, "We will talk after this." Before giving you a smile and then left.
The impact of the kiss was still there on your forehead. You didn't notice your eyes were wide open from the shock until someone bumped into you. You stiffed and wiped your eyes as you felt your mood lightened up.
You waited for them back stage after the end of the concert. The rest of the stylists and makeup artists were also there with you. Once the boys showed, they congratulated them warmly. When Ken's gaze met yours, you smiled as a strong feeling of proudness filled your hearts.
"Noona" Hongbin suddenly appeared before you, "I'm sorry."
"Hmmm." You said looking at the ground sadly.
"I'm so sorry noona really, I shouldn't have looked or treated you like this." Hongbin seemed regretful and sorry of his doing.
"It's ok Hongbin. It can happen." You smiled at him, forgiving him. Hongbin was kind after all and you knew how stressed he was. He gave you his dimples smile. How can I stay angry or upset with this smile of yours? You though and chuckled at it.
Hongbin leaned near your ears and whispered. "Noona, don't cry again or he would be so angry" he winked at you before leaving.
Once he left, Ken appeared before you with annoyed expression. "Did he annoy you again?" Ken asked.
"No" you chuckled.
"Would you like to have dinner together?" Ken asked rubbing the back of his neck. You smiled and nodded "Yeah I would love too."
Good friend?!
That's how he probably saw you. Or that's what you thought.
Ken took you to a nice restaurant, it looked so expensive that it worried you, he pulled your chair as he asked you to take a seat before he sat in front of you.
"What do you think?" He asked. His eyes were scanning the restaurant. You looked around and said worriedly. "It must be expensive here, let's go another place" you were about to stand up but ken pulled you back to your seat.
"Their food is good. Let's just eat here."
"Why don't you save it to your girl-"
"What would you get sir?" The waiter asked interrupting your talk.
"What would you like to eat Y/N?" Ken said looking through the menu.
"But Jaehwan-ah, it's...."
"Y/N, I'm going to eat here. With You"
You blushed for a minute before opening the menu before you and ordering a steak beef as Ken ordered the same as you.
"It would be nice if you took your girlfriend here." You mumbled as you kept looking around.
"Then would you like to be my girlfriend?" Ken asked suddenly that it shocked you. The heat raised inside of you and you knew that you were blushing.
"W-what are you talking about?" you laughed awkwardly, trying not to take his joke seriously as you knew he loved to joke around a lot.
"Y/N, I'm talking seriously. I really like you and I want to go out with you. I want you as my girlfriend"
Your smile faded you were still scared to be in a new relationship even though you also liked ken. It had been so long since you broke up with your ex but it still frightened you that Ken would change. Your expression was straight and hard to read.
"I don't know" you finally said. "I'm scared..."
"What? Scared?" Ken asked worriedly and confused. He had been friend with you for 3 month now and he never figured that you were scared of being in a relationship. It hurt him a little.
"Yeah scared." You nodded.
"Why?"
"Three years ago, I had a boyfriend." You find yourself trusting Ken enough to tell him about your past. "He was nice at first and then he suddenly changed." You paused. "We started to fight a lot and there was physical fight included." You found your throats dried, it still hurt after all this years. "Later on I figure that he was cheating on me and whenever he saw me he would abuse me. I thought that he would get back to the person he was but he never did."
Ken gulped as he heard your story he knew now why you were so sensitive when Hongbin treated you badly a while ago. He felt rage inside him, like he would ever want to hurt a nice girl like you.
"Are you okay?" It was all ken could say. And you loved that about him. He was concerned about you more than anything else. Since you had first known him and he felt different.
"I don't know..."
"It anger me." Ken said biting his lips.
"What?" you asked confused
"You are always smiling and I couldn't imagine you would carry all this pain inside of you" Ken blamed himself on something that he never did. He blamed himself for leaving you in this pain for a long time alone
"Jaehwan-ah, you had always been the reason behind my smile. Thank you for making me smile." You smiled looking at his eyes. "I have never smiled once in all those years until I met you. Thank you for changing me. And that's why I'm scared that you would change like my ex."
"Y/N, listen! Since the day I met you on the café, I knew that you are different and special." He said. But he smiled in a silly way to change the mood. "Will you believe me if I said that I loved you at first sight?" he shrugged cutely
"Maybe" You chuckled of his cuteness.
"You're beautiful when you smile. " Ken said
"Thank you for making me beautiful" You said
After the dinner was over, you felt like your heart became lighter that you told ken about your past now. He took you home and opened the door for you like a gentleman when you arrived your house.
"Thank you, I had fun today."
"So you are my girlfriend okay?"
"Jaehwan-ah!!" you exclaimed hitting his arms.
"I'll never change, I promise. I will never ever love anyone but you." He said with a voice full with agyeo. Why is he so cute?
"You promised" you pointed at him. He pulled you into a hug and pecked your lips quickly, chuckling. "You're mine now" Ken smiled moving his head in excitement.
"Ah I'm yours" He pecked your lips again before leaving.
He kept waving goodbye to you until his car blended with the darkness. You chuckled and turned to your building when you heard a message arrived your phone.
You looked at it as you opened the building door going upstairs, it was from Ken. He texted "Sleep well Jagia. I can't wait to see you tomorrow." You chuckled opening your apartment door and closing the door behind you.
Jagia?! Since when we call each other like that you texted back
Since the second you agreed to go out with me and it will last until we become old with wrinkles around our eyes and our granddaughters or grandsons run around us.
His last message made your heart beat so fast you loved it but you wished it would be true.
Don't make promises like that until you're sure that you will fulfil them. Just always be the reason behind my smile.

THE END...