Kpop Fanfic | Short Stories

Different | Suga

"I'm just different from the type of guy you want, I can't be a nice guy. Even if you're lonely because of me, try to understand baby I want to express it but it's not easy"

"Let's take a break, Yoongi." You didn't know how you said, but you did. Tears filled your eyeball from the previous fight you just had with him as a teardrop made its way down your cheeks, you wiped it, angrily with the back of your hand. "I can't take this anymore."

"You can't take this anymore?" He repeated your sentence as if it were foreign to him, as if you weren't fighting a minute ago because of this.

You thought of sending him a text message to tell him that, but you found yourself ending up in front of his dorm, asking him to meet you outside.

You just couldn't help but feeling useless and unimportant in this relationship.

Yoongi didn't really show his care for you or that he actually liked you, like when the two of you being together, he would always be busy doing something on his laptop or even his phone, when you hug, he didn't hug you back, which hurt. When you kiss him something felt wrong as if he didn't want to be with you. When you send him a text he wouldn't reply to you and when you call him he would end it so quickly saying that he was so busy to talk.

It hurt that it was unbearable to you.

You felt like you were being in a relationship with a ghost, he never returned your feelings and you just couldn't take this anymore.

"Yeah, Yoongi. I can't take being in a relationship with someone who doesn't like me. If you..." Your lips quivered and your breath hitched as a sob raised in your chest. "If you didn't like me from the start, you should have rejected me. You should have rejected me and saved me from this great pain."

"I said it's not like this." Yoongi sighed, finding this whole argument pointless. "You don't know how I feel."

"Of course I don't know." You scoffed, rolling your eyes that were blurred with tears that kept falling unwillingly. "You have never shown what you feel about me. See, this relationship is pointless. This whole thing is pointless, Yoongi."

"So that's what you think?" Yoongi took a few steps toward you as you backed away, shaking your head.

"Stop, Yoongi. YES! You made me think like this. I don't feel loved Yoongi. If we were friend I believe you would show more attention than this to me. You don't like me. I'm sorry I pushed you into this relationship."

Tears running down your cheeks, you turned as you walked away from Yoongi. You didn't want to stand there anymore. You just got enough of being in love alone in this. It was you who asked him out. It was you who always arrange for a date. It was you who hugged him first, it was you who kissed him first, it was you who...

Suddenly a hand grabbed your arm, making you turn around. Yoongi looked at you with a frown, his face was kind of red and he was breathing heavily.

"You don't tell me what I feel." He snapped, making you jump in your place. "You don't know how I feel so don't talk as if you know me well. It's so annoying."

"Yoongi..."

"You can't leave like this." He yelled, shrugging you. "You can't just make me so attracted to you, feeling guilty that I can't show you my feelings well, and then leave me like this. Okay, I may be a cold guy, but it doesn't mean I don't like you. I don't go out and waste time with someone who I don't have a single feeling toward them."

You cried as you looked down at your feet not meeting his eye. If he really liked you, he should have at least showed a little bit of it. "How can I believe you?"

"You don't believe me?"

"Yes, Yoongi. I don't believe--" You were shut by lips sticking to yours, muffling all the words that was coming out of your throat. His arm wrapped around your waist as he pulled you toward him, deepening the kiss. It was the first time, Yoongi makes the first move. It shocked you and left you like a jelly in his arms.

When he broke the kiss, he looked deeply in your eyes as his thumb reached to wipe your tears away. "I'm sorry if I'm hurting you, but I won't change. I'm just different from the guy you want me to be, which I will not be, It's not easy to say how I feel toward you... but that doesn't mean I don't like you, I like you so much. God, I love you Y/N."

You looked at him with your teary eyes as another sob raised to your throat. "I love you too, Yoongi."

"Even if I'm like this, please don't leave me. Never ever leave me and stop saying you want to take a break, it breaks my heart too."

You nodded as you wrapped your arm around his waist, hugging me. You didn't expect him to hug you back, but he did. And you never though his hug would be this warm.