Death Of A Bachelor (Phan)

13. Golden Days 2

"Time can never break your heart
But It'll take the pain away
Right now our future's certain
I won't let it fade away" - Golden Days

Phil's POV

Today was supposed to be a normal day at the house, whatever "normal" was. Dan and I had ended up sleeping in till about noon, because of this day off, and we were only getting up for breakfast now. We got dressed, occasionally making small talk about the show and wanting to go back to sleep. After realising my sorta feelings for Dan i thought i would be a lot more awkward around him, but he's still the best friend he has been since the beginning.

Dan and I walked to the kitchen, still having our conversation in hushed voices. We ended up having some Crunchy Nut cereal as always and taking our bowls to the living room to see the other boys. sitting on the couches were Alfie, Caspar and Finn. The room felt a lot smaller now that there were only five of us left in the competition. I noticed a bit of tension between Alfie and Caspar. I looked to Dan, and as i suspected he noticed this too, raising an eyebrow at the boys, mid cereal -chew and deciding to take his cereal and talk to Finn instead.

I realised the tension was because Caspar had won the competition last night and would be going on a date with Zoe tonight. Alfie looked quite pissed yet regretful, while Caspar just looked upset and guilty. Caspar got up and quietly excused himself to his room, not noticing Alfie glancing after him. I took this opportunity to strike up a conversation with Alfie. I plonked down next to him, surprising him with my actions. "Hey Alfie" I start. "Hey phil, how's it going?" Alfie replies, not seeming much into the conversation.

"Good i guess, Dan and I are still quite surprised that we've made it this far in the competition." I say with a slight laugh, attempting to sorta change the subject. Alfie then looks at me with a knowing smirk "you and Dan huh?" "shut up, its not like that" yet i think in my head. "Yeah, Yeah, suuuuure" he carries out, with a wink. I laugh, then Alfie continues. "you should see the way he looks at you sometimes" I look at him confused "in what way?" Alfie laughs again. "don't worry about it mate, its nothing." I take his word for it and we change the subject of conversation once again.

Dans POV

I look over to where Phil is. He's still sitting next to Alfie, laughing about god knows what. I feel myself getting a little jealous, but try to ignore it as i nod along to whatever Finn is saying. He was talking about missing his twin brother Jack, and i understood missing my family as well, i hadn't seen them for a while. Finn and I jump, startled as a loud bang sounds as Caspar walks somewhat angrily into the room and plonks down on the couch. Without so much as a word spoken between them, Caspar and Alfie make eye contact and Alfie stands and goes to his room.

Caspar starts to talk to Finn as if that moment didn't just happen in front of us. I catch Phil's eyes and nod my head to our room, wanting to leave the situation as quickly as possible. Phil nods in understanding and we excuse ourselves to our room. When we get inside we flop onto our beds, which were still pushed next to each other, as if we were exhausted, even though we had slept for most of the day already.

I look over to Phil and he starts to laugh. I look at him confused and ask why he's laughing. He just grins widely, "this whole show is quite messed up" i raise my eyebrows signalling for him to elaborate. He sighs "we are all COMPETING against each other for a girl, and we've all become friends, this is either gonna bring us closer or tear us apart in jealousy. Like Zoe's nice and everything but is all of this drama really worth it." i take in what he had said and nod my head in agreement. "I don't even know if i want to be here anymore" he says. I snap my head to meet his eyes. Phil's whole mood had shifted dramatically from light and happy to sad and depressing.

I knew it was Phil's mums idea for him to come on the show in the first place, but i didn't know he felt this way. Me being selfish, didn't want him to go either, i didn't want him to leave me just yet. "you have to stay" i try to convince him. He looks at me, kinda frustrated "why? Zoe's more of a friend to me and i don't think i can go through much of this drama. Seeing Alfie and Caspar so angry at each other after being best friends from the beginning, it scares me" He looks at me, sadness in his eyes. "what if that happens to us?" Phil's words hit me like a ton of bricks, my feelings for him becoming much more evident now, as i realise I could possibly lose him.

I lurch forward and wrap my arms around him, surprising him a bit. He melts into my hug and breathes in deeply. "I know that the show won't separate us" i whisper quietly into his ear, as if any sound could break the moment. Phil pulls away from the hug but still really close. His blue Irises meet my Brown ones. "How can you be so sure?" he asks, his voice barely above a whisper. I find myself getting lost in his eyes (ugh the cheesiness) My emotions so close to just appearing - fuck it.

i lean forward and capture his lips in mine. The kiss being soft and caring, making my stomach erupt with the so-called butterflies. Phil reciprocating the movement against me, as my arms wrap slightly tighter around him. I pull back, just far enough to rest my forehead against his. "Just stay a little longer." Phil pauses all movement for a moment, before his eyes flutter open, meeting mine once again. He breaks into a small smile before nodding.

"okay"

••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••A/N: Hey Guys! Aaaaaaaaaaaand I'm back motherfluffers. How you been? It's been a while! Anywhale how'd you like the chapter? I sorta did a pun with the title and the picture, it's called "golden days" and they're wearing golden suits! No? Okay whatever then. Anyway I feel like only Megan reads this book but I'm okay with that I guess, hopefully I will finish all of this very soon. Also much drama is appearing on the horizon.
Anywhale I got to go do.... Stuff...

Lots o love,
Elisaveth ❤️