Death Of A Bachelor (Phan)

18. Don't Threaten Me With a Good Time 2

"Champagne, cocaine, gasoline

And most things in between

I roam the city in a shopping cart

A pack of camels and a smoke alarm

This night is heating up

Raise hell and turn it up

Saying "If you go out you might pass out in a drain pipe"

Oh yeah, don't threaten me with a good time" - Don't threaten me with a good time

Dans POV

I had told Phil the problem, when we were in the garden earlier. I can still picture his expression in my mind as he hears what has to be done. Tears welled in his gorgeous blue eyes, and his never-ending smile crumpled from his face. I remember looking at him, and him not meeting my eyes as we spoke and made the decision. I can still feel the tension that was between us, when i said "I'm going to take the money."

I had hoped he would understand that i was doing this for Megan and Peej, and he did, but i can never unsee the heartbroken expression he had, when he ran, leaving me after the words had left my mouth. I had stayed sat in that same spot, on the garden bench for a good half hour, contemplating what had happened. I eventually walked back to our room to find that Phil had temporarily moved into Marcus's old room.

Ellie had told me, because of the money issue i was guaranteed a spot in the finale, but that had left the decision between Phil and Alfie. They both had to pack their bags, under the possibility of them leaving. I had to fought bak tears as i thought of Phil leaving, and me never being able to make it up to him. Every fibre of my being wanted to get up and run to Phil, begging him not to leave, but i knew he needed space.

I tried to waste time waiting for the elimination, which was to be staged anyway. I tried scrolling on tumblr on my phone, or even trying to take a nap, but my mind was full of phil and only phil. My thoughts consumed my conscience and i wasn't able to distract myself from him at all. I started to smile, thinking of all of his cute little quirks, like the way he poked his tongue out of his mouth when he laughed, or when he would just ramble o about the stupidest little things, that took his full interest. I felt sad knowing that i had actually hurt him, but tried to convince myself that i could make it up to him after the show.

A few hours passed, with me doing absolutely nothing to stop Phil from consuming my thoughts, an it was now time for the elimination. i got dressed and sprayed some deodorant to ensure that i didn't smell, before making my way to the elimination room. When i arrived, i found that Alfie and Phil were already talking on the platform of the room. Ellie and Zoe were talking at the other end of the room probably discussing when the cameras were gonna get here and stuff.

I awkwardly made my way to my spot on the platform, next to Phil. i greeted the boys when i got there, getting a 'hello' from Alfie and avoided eye contact from Phil. Okay, that one hurt. I tried to focus on my shoes, shuffling my feet to distract myself, as i felt Phil slowly gaze up at me. it hurt to ignore him, but it was the only way we would get past this. I can fix this, all of this after the show.

Ellie called our names, bringing our attention to the cameramen that had just entered through the door. We snapped our heads towards her, watching as she started giving the men orders. it wasn't too long before she had them all set up, in their places across the room. About half of them were directed at Zoe and the other half were directed at us. Ellie stood next to Zoe, as they began to film the episode for tonight. 

Ellie started her introduction, naming the contestants and summarising the previous weeks and eliminations. It wasn't too long until they had to call out our names. Zoe stepped towards the microphone, taking a deep breath before speaking the first name.

"Dan, please step forward"

i catch her eye, and move to meet her on the other side of the room. As i stand in front of her, i meet her eyes, which were showing a glimpse of sympathy. She knows. "Do you accept this rose?" She looks at me attentively as i nod my head, giving her a fake smile. "I will." I accept the rose and move beside Zoe, holding the red rose in my hand. I stand there nervously as i wait for the next name to be called. I want Phil to be called, but Alfie would be heartbroken if he didn't get in, but if Alfie got called, it would be easier for all of us.

Zoe steps towards the microphone again and takes another deep breath. The tension in the room is high as the next few words fall from her lips.

"Phil, please step forward"

My heart stops and i glance to Alfie who seemed to be attempting to mask his emotions, even though he looked as he would break any given moment. I cast my gaze to Phil, who walks towards a smiling Zoe, void of any emotion. Once he stops, Zoe extends her arm, holding out the rose. "Do you accept this rose?" 

There was a pause, where everyone seemed to be holding their breath, as Phil held his eye contact with Zoe. Then he shook his head. "Im sorry I can't" He says, voice breaking. He gives Zoe a hug, who smiles sadly in return and nods towards Alfie, who silently thanks him with his expression, then Phil looks at me. It seems as though time stops, but its only for a brief moment that our gazes catch. He only stares long enough for me to see the tears well in his eyes, before he turns and swiftly walks out of the room.

I'm lost in my thoughts, as I'm made to stay, when Ellie wraps up the elimination for tonight. The room is heavy with emotion and i feel the need to get out of there as quickly as possible. I say goodnight to everyone before rushing out of the room and heading towards the Bedrooms, hoping to see Phil before he leaves. I run to our room, bursting the door open and looking around the Phil-less room. I had forgotten that he moved to Marcus's old room.

 i turn and sprint down the hallway, coming face-to-face with the door. I take a breath, recollecting myself before twisting the door handle and walking inside. When i enter, i look around to see apart from furniture, the room is completely empty. My heart drops and i feel tears well up in my eyes, turning to walk out of the room. Before i leave, something on the bed catches my eye. I walk towards it, seeing its a note, written in someones slightly messy handwriting, directed to me.

To Danny,

Im so sorry, i left without saying a proper goodbye. But if i saw you, i wouldn't have been able to leave. I hope everything goes well with the payments for the apartment and after the show, I hope you are happy. We will probably see each other again very soon, but in the mean time, just know that i forgot to tell you one small detail about myself.

Im hopelessly in love with you. 

Please don't let this affect, your winning of the competition, but just know that it is the truth. I look forward to seeing you again Dan.

Love always,

Your Phillly.

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A/N: Hey guys! So what'd y'all think of this chapter? A bit on the hectic side? sorry... This was my plan all along and you just have to wait for what i have next in store. Also i would like to use this A/N to thank, My most amazing and oldest friend Megan, for always staying intrigued by the story and just being there for me in general. Anywhale, please leave any feedback or comments on the story, because i would like to improve my writing!

Lots o love,

Elisaveth ❤️