Twist Me | Ghorror

Silent Ride | Chapter 13

We sat there in silence for a few moments, just starring at each other.Ricky seemed to be waiting for some form of a response from me and I was still in shock. The whole thing wasn't making sense in my mind. 

"I want you to take me home now. I heard you out and I promise I won't say anything to anyone." I told him in a pleading tone. I guess I won't be able to leave something like the news on for background noise anymore knowing the truth now.

He let out a heavy sigh. "I did promise you that. Go grab your things I'll be in the car." He told me beofre quickly leaving the room. I could tell he was disappointed on how things turned out but I didn't know what to think anymore.

Walking into the bedroom I bent down to grab my bag but I was stop by what appeared to a judgmental stare from the cat. Even thinking that made me feel crazy. Was I really feeling judgement from a cat? Why should I be feeling judgement? I'm the one who controls my issues well his owner kills people to deal with his.

"What are you looking at?" I snapped at him getting a soft meow from him in response. He was oblivious to everything and I wish I still was as well. I think I was just taking the anger I didn't take out on Ricky on him. It needed to go somewhere or else I would become how I use to be.  

With an eye roll that I didn't really know if it was directed towards me or the poor cat that my delusional thoughts were being forced upon I made my way out of the room and back to the front door. I was trying to keep my gaze away from the basement not wanting the memories of what I saw to come back to me. I keep my eyes forward as I put on my shoes.

Rushing out the door I felt myself start to shiver from the cold. I should of brought of jacket but of course I really never thought the weekend would go the way it did. The headlights glowed at the bottom of the driveway and I was all but rushing towards it know it would be warm inside. Even though I would rather not be this close to the person inside that car right now.

Getting in Ricky smiled at me as I sat down. I shot him a hash glare in return to show my feeling towards him. He was making me feel like how I did years ago before I got help and I didn't like it. He was making me feel like I was almost like him and I couldn't stand the thought of that. Well part of me couldn't there was this part in the back of my mind that knew every word he said was true. I was fighting that part of my mind as hard as I possible could.

The ride back to my place was completely silent between the two of us. The only noise that could be heard was the rev of the engine occasionally and the sound the car heater made as it heated up the car. Even with the heater going I still felt myself shivering. I think it was more of a mental feeling then a physical one. 

I must of spaced out because next thing I knew I was jumping almost out of my seat when I felt a warm hand grab mine. Turning towards Ricky I saw it was him and I quickly ripped his hold on me away for him. 

"Don't touch me." I spat at him as I quickly turned to go get out of the car once I noticed we were in my apartments parking lot. The quicker I could get away from him the quicker I could think things through for myself. I need do this on my own without him here to cloud my thoughts. I couldn't think straight with him around knowing what he has done. 

I heard the car doors lock the second my hand went to grab the handle and I let out a frustrated sigh before glaring at him. "Ricky please unlock the door." I demanded at him. The annoyance in my voice was something he couldn't miss for sure but Ricky being himself  choose to ignored it.

"Please just let me say something before you get out." There as a small bit of desperation in his voice as he spoke which was made me turn back around to loom at him. Part of me still did care about me and I did want to give him the benefit of the doubt even if he doesn't deserve it.

"Okay go ahead and say what you need to and I'll listen." I said with a sigh as I settled back down in the seat, looking at him as I waited for him to speak again.

"I trust you and all but please don't make me regret that. I don't really think I can live that down and nothing go will come out of you doing that and I van't control what could be if you say a word.." The way he said that made me feel like there was more then one of him involved in this somehow which made me feel a sense of power in a strange way I couldn't describe. I knew I should of disgusted me but it didn't at all. "Also think about what I said and you know where to contact me when you figure out I'm right. I'm only trying to make your life easier. It's so much easier when you don't push who you truly are away."

I slowly nodded at him unsure of what to say back to that. Deicing that there was nothing else to say I open the car and step out. Shockingly Ricky let me leave this time. I think he want to give me a fair shot to think through everything. I know which way he was hoping I would feel later on but I didn't know who I would true out at all. The idea of not knowing my own possible fate scared me more then I ever imagine it would.