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Breaking Point | Chapter 15

I was more on edge then I have ever been in years. It was taking the smallest things to push me to a point were I needed to take a moment and calm myself before I did something I would regret.

It had been a while since Ricky and I last talk and I was surprised he was actually giving me my space to think about things. I had kept my promise to him and I told no one of the secret I knew about him. I don't know how I was doing it but I did know that there was a strong part of me that cared for him and wanted to protect him. 

I think him reminding me off my past is what was bringing this out in me more. All those choice I had made years ago to keep myself in check were choices I was debating if that was the right move for me or not. I don't think I ever thought I would go back on these promises I made to myself and I was feeling no remorse for it.

Work had become more difficult to get through now that I had less control of myself. I had many more moments that I lashed out on my coworkers like I had done that one day Ricky had first come into the shop to see me. I no longer had the self control to stop myself like I had done for years now. 

As of today I had shockingly made it through the whole day with out a blow out. I was standing at the cash register before closing and I could feel my hands shaking as I tried to compose myself.

Glancing at the clock that was on the far side of the wall of the shop I saw I was still here a few minutes paced closing time. I usually don't care if I had to stay late but today I knew it wouldn't work for me. Knowing this I rushed out the door without even saying a word to anyone. They could finish up on their own. I was almost on the verge of going off again and this was better for their sake anyways.

"Devin, wait up for a moment!" I heard someone call from behind me when I was about half way down the street from the shop. Of course though someone wouldn't understand that. Why couldn't they just leave me alone. You think they would want to after they have seen my get angry, they should of had some fear in force in them from that.

I let out a frustrated sigh as I stop moving and turned aroudn to face the person who was walking in my direction. It was that same red head who I had rolled her eyes at me when I had one of my first out burst on them. She was the newest there and I think she thought she was pretty tough to come after me after seeing how heated I can get when I'm work out. 

Her hair was a bright, vibrant hair. She wore a pair of combat boots, black jeans with a t shirt and a leather jacket over it. She was quite causal looking and that was one thing that never really change about her attire.

"What do you want?" I ask her with an eye roll once she stop i front of me. This better be good if she wants to waste me time.  

"I'm Sidney. I don't think you ever got my name. before" She told me as she stuck her hand out in my direction. All I did in response to that was motion my glaza down at it and glare. When she noticed her attempt at a friendly introduction was going no where she drop it back down to her side."Anyways, you've seen not so much like yourself recently and I wanted to make sure you were okay." She spoke in such a high pitch tone it was hard to take her seriously. Her voice was so shrill it was hurting my ears a tiny bit if I was being honest. 

"I'm fine not like it should be any of your business anyways. You also oblivious don't know me very well because this is quite normal behavior for me." I spat at her as I tried to calm myself down before I made a mistake that I couldn't take back. This girl needed to walk away now if she valued anything. 

I felt like I was stuck to were I was standing and if I moved an inch it wouldn't be in the direction to my house. I don't think I was capable of just walking away from this at the moment. My brain had moved long passed the ability to process the consequence of this situation if it went badly.

Why out of everyday that something like this could happen it had to be the day were I had all my anger bottled up in me. I couldn't of been on one of the days were I had already had a blow up and I was possible in better control of myself. 

"Aw that's so horrible that you always are like this, it must be tiring." I could hear the pity in her voice and I felt my fist start to clench as I tried to control myself. It was taking everything in me  to not lose it right now. She didn't know anything about me, she had no right to question who I am. 

I let out a chuckle that came far from any place of humor. "You think so? You think it's tiring? Well maybe you just help me make up my mind on ways to deal with it." I spat at her as I start to step closer to her.

I could see shock and fear cover her face and she started to walk backwards away from me. I guess she want smart enough not to turn her back I'll give her that. The smart move would of been to scream an attraction attention our way but I guess her brain wasn't thinking about that. 

What she didn't notice was that she had started to walk on a small bit of an angle that was causing her to step into a ally way. She was so caught up in paying attention me that she didn't even notice that she was putting herself in a place were we were out of eye sight of any by standers that could be her saving grace. Also there was a dead end that I could see getting closer to us. This would leave her with no place to run.

"Wh-what ar-re you-u doing?" She stutter from fear. All I did was smile at her in response that I could tell made her even more fearfully.

Eventually her back hit the wall of the back corner and due to a wall that pushed out of the side of the building in front of us no one walking by on the street could even see us. She had no were to go now and I knew there was no turning back now.

"Whatever I want to." I told her and after those words left my mouth everything seemed to just go black and I had had no more control of what was goign to peahen to her but I was fully aware of what her sate would be when I came to again. This time aroudn though no one was here to stop me from doing what I should of been doing all along.