You feel his hand slowly slide down you lower back as you straddle yourself across Ethan. You both interlock in a intense gaze before you break it with another inhalation of your cigarette.
As you breath out the smoke you release a giggle.
"What's so funny" Ethan said grasping your lower thigh.
"nothing," You say blotching out your finished cigarettes into the ash tray.
It wasn't anything though. It was everything. This is the most you'd felt in ages.
"hmm" Ethan said with a giggle, whilst picking you up and dragging you back onto the couch.
Ethan begins to press up next to you, leaning over you until his head was leveled with yours.
You watch as he playfully puckers his lips to you, encouraging you to kiss him back.
You smirk as you grab his jaw and pull him in toward your lips. You both connect and begin to kiss before you slowly begin to sit upright again.
"Ethan," you say looking at him.
"Yeah" he replied resting his hand back on your thigh.
"What are we" you say looking down
"What do you mean?"
Your heart begins to accelerate before you burst out the question that you've been holding in for the weeks you've been interacting with him.
"What are we?" you ask looking back up toward him.
"Cause we can't just be friends" you felt your stomach drop with your cut throat comment.
You can hear his breaths become a lot more rapid and deep as he looks you back into the eyes.
"I didn't think it was that hard to tell that I have feelings for you."
"I don't go around kissing every girl I see" He replied with a smirk as he looks you in the eyes
You smile at him
*beep beep*
You both look down at the table where Ethan's phone was. It lit up with a message from Grayson.
iMessage 21:32
G- be careful stranger, might let someone see you smoking your lungs away on Charlie's balcony. You're an ashtray, fucking disgusting. Don't come back to this apartment without rinsing your body out. I can't believe you.
Ethan picks up the phone as you watch the colour drain from his face.
"Fuck" Ethan said
You grab the phone from Ethan and look up toward him.
"He saw me." He said standing up abruptly looking pissed
"Ethan listen it's fine, you just got to tell him its only a cigarette" You say trying to calm Ethan down
"That's not the point."Ethan said heading toward the door.
He stood silently staring as his phone.
"I'm fucked" he released under his breath.
"It's just a cigarette." you say once more trying to calm him. Still weary that you had been warning him this whole time.
"I don't think you get it charlie. I haven't got a dad because of shit like this" he said aggressively
Your eyes widen as you begin to piece together why he was reluctant to go into depth about his family with you.
"What" you reply, unable to think of anything else to say
"Lung cancer"
"I'm sorry" you release.
A million questions rush through your head, as you try to think of what to say. Ethan just stood there, eyes welling whilst staring at you. You stumble over your words before you watch Ethan lose his patients and begin to walk towards your door.
"Ethan!" You reply trying to follow him
"I'll see you tomorrow at 6." Said Ethan as he slammed your apartment door behind him.
