You stare at him as you feel your stomach drop. Who have you created, because the happy Ethan you knew isn't in there anymore. You don't recognise this boy sitting in front of you.
"Ethan" you say as you release an overwhelming amount of breath. "Why'd you hit him? Why'd you do that?" You say sitting down next to him.
"He doesn't understand" Ethan said bluntly
"And I guess neither did I" you say hinting at your eyebrow
"I didn't mean to hit you" he replied with a guilty tone.
"Why'd you hit him" you ask again
"He was getting involved in stuff he doesn't understand" Ethan Continued.
"What stuff" you question further, already apparent of the response.
"He went through my room, and found everything. He tried taking everything. He doesn't understand." Ethan replied disengaged.
"What do you mean everything? what?" you say beginning to become agitated and impatient.
"My drugs, my cigarettes, everything." he replied.
"You're fucking joking" You say disappointed. "I told you to stop, I asked you to fucking stop!"You yell frantically.
"You've done that over drugs"
He looks up at you slowly, you can see the expression of anger through his eyes.
You stand up and walk over to your balcony and light up a cigarette.
"Don't walk away from me" Ethan said with an aggressive tone.
You hear him stand up and begin to pace towards you, the hair on the back of your necks stands on its end, as you feel his presence looming.
As you lift your cigarette to your mouth Ethan Lunges to grip your arm and tugs you towards him.
"Don't fucking walk away from me" he yelled, looking into your eyes, allowing your cigarette to release and drop to the floor.
You loose your breath for a moment before ripping you hand from his grip.
"Don't fucking touch me!" you yell pushing against his chest.
"Don't ever touch me again. Remember whose house you're in. If you ever do what you did to me again, I'll act like I never knew you" you yell staring back at him with an expression of anger whipped across your face.
Ethan doesn't say anything
"fucking speak" you say staring at him intensely
You watch as he slowly turns around and begins to pace towards the front door.
"Ethan?" you say
He stops in his tracks and turns to face you, tears welling up in his eyes.
"I've lost everything" he said as tears began to flood down his cheeks and he places his face in the palms of his hands.
You stare, and watch as the strong and flourishing human being you once knew, began to decay in front of you. Eroding from you, the drugs and the alcohol.
You walk over to him and sit him down on the couch, whilst you rest your forehead against his and run your hands through his hair.
"I can't lose you" he said looking into your eyes as he dropped his hands from his face.
You stare into his hurt blood shot eyes, his long, dark lashes damp from his tears.
You place your hand on his cheek.
"You're losing yourself Ethan." You say gently
"I can't change you" you say still running your hands though your hair.
"But you did" he said sitting up with the tears running through his stubble.
"You fucking changed me" he said looking back up to connect eye contact.
"Ethan I know you don't want to be like this" you say quietly, fighting the emotion, sitting in the back of your throat.
"I do. I need u" He said adamantly
"You shouldn't put my life before yours Ethan. You have people that love you so dearly, you can't throw that away for me"
"Stop saying shit to make me try and change. I don't want to go back, I don't want anything but you and right now it feels as if you don't even want me anymore" he said standing up aggressively
"Ethan" you say standing up as well
"We all hurt. We all fucking hurt, and it feels like the end of the world, and it feels like you'll never be happy again, but you will."
You pause
Ethan looks at you up and down whilst rubbing his tears away
"I find it so amazing that you still exhibit love, even though you've been hurt too many times"
He looks to the ground.
"You used to exhibit love"
He looks up at you.
"Why did you stop?"
He begins to walk towards the door for the final time.
"Where are you going" you say as tears begin to roll down your sun kissed cheeks.
"Somewhere" Ethan replied as he opened the door.
He turns to interrupt you as you go to follow him.
"Alone." He said whilst blinking trying to confine his tears.
You stand still in the door way as you watch him walk off towards the garage with his ruck sack on his back.
You continue to rub your eyes as you come to a realisation.
You look up abruptly
"Grayson!" You say remembering where he was left.
You grab your bag and begin to run towards Ethan's apartment.
