Something Broken

Rocking

anxiety welling in my chest
Splitting my rib cage in two
I can feel you all staring
Watching me break down
But you have no idea
What's tearing me up

My pains pour out of me in the form of tears from my eyes
Rushing out all at once
The world starts rocking back and forth
Or maybe it's just me

This isn't your fault
But it is
I don't blame you
Nor should you blame yourself
Because I'll take the fall
I always have

My anxieties were born before myself
I was raised in them
Molded by them
Created from them
this brokenness was not caused by you
But you kindled the flame

I became addicted to your love
It filled in the holes in my heart
Your words held me together
And now I'm a paper house in the rain

I fell for you
But you didn't catch me
So now I sit alone in my room
Rocking to the beat of gasping breaths and a half-time heartbreak