Something Broken

Synthetic Heart

How unfair,
Was I to give so little?
How much hurt
Did I push through your chest, into your heart?
I did not give you the love you deserve
I never have
I'm too afraid to use my real heart,
For broken is its state
And more pain it cannot bear
So I pushed you out
Like a mother bird pushing her chick from the nest
Because she knows only then it will fly

I feared loving you with a broken heart
So I picked up the extra pieces and build another
A synthetic heart
And I gave it to you
Held together by duct tape and broken promises,
It played the part

But as it has been said
You reap what you sow
And I planted in you my synthetic love
So I received only fake happiness
Shining brightly during the day
But lying dormant when night fell

I feared being hurt so badly
I locked my real heart away
But little did I know it could see through the gaps of its cage
It sought you
And I, protecting it, denied it the freedom

But when I set you free
You kept my synthetic heart
But I had not foreseen
The effects on my heart of flesh

It watched you leave
And tore off it's veins
Unplugged it's arteries
And split in two

I loved you with a heart not so synthetic
A real heart in disguise.
But now you are free from me,
But I'll continue to be okay,
I always have,
I'll build a new synthetic heart
And I'll place in the empty cavern that is my chest