New Girl (GirlxGirl/Lesbian Story) [Completed]

Chapter 12

Another two months were over and now it was December. The 22nd to be exact. Today we’d go and get our Christmas tree so we could decorate it tomorrow. Maybe it was weird for a seventeen year old but I was still excited to go and choose the perfect tree. I could remember how we used to go as a family to Jim, the guy who sold the trees. When I was younger dad would always give me a piggyback ride through the rows while mum and Josh always laughed at us because of how silly we were. Dad and I usually stood in front of the trees with critical faces and were rating them with a British accent. Jim, the owner, always seemed to enjoy it when we were there and joined my dad and I. It was always fun to go there. I was a Christmas freak anyways. It’s always been my favorite time of the year. The snow, hot chocolate, the smell of cinnamon and pine tree. I loved it. Especially the evenings we’d sit in front of the TV, were wrapped in our blankets and watched “A Christmas Carol” or “How the Grinch stole Christmas” with our cups of tea or hot chocolate and cookies.

A quiet sigh escaped my lips as I remembered all that. I really missed my mum. Her hugs, kisses and smiles. The smell of her perfume, the angelic sound of her voice and the light footsteps of hers. How she held me every time I was scared or sad and how she scolded all the teachers and adults who were mean to me. And how she always eased my pain or even made it go away. Like she could perform magic. Like-

»What are you looking at?« I turned my head to the right to see Josh standing next to me. He looked out of the window probably trying to find out what I’ve been looking at.

»Nothing in particular. I was just thinking.« I shrugged turning my attention back to what was happening outside our house. Kids were running in their front yards building snowmen or having a snowball fight. They were wearing thick, colorful jackets, mittens and hats with ear flaps and little bobbles on top of their heads. They looked so cute with their red noses and cheeks.

»A few years ago we were the ones running in our front yard while throwing snowballs into each other’s faces.« Josh sighed. »I wish it could be like it used to… Like when we were kids…«

»Me, too, Joshi.« He raised one of his eyebrows at me as I used my old nickname for him. »You know what? Why don’t we just do it? We could have a snowball fight, build snowmen and do snow angels. Like old times.«

»It wouldn’t be the same though. Not without mum.«

»Maybe you’re right, but we’ve got Sam and Anna. So what you think?« He took a few moments to think before finally nodding.

»Alright. But we’ll have to surprise them. We need a good reason to get them out of the house. They can’t be suspicious, okay?«

»Deal.« And then we ran up to his room like we used to when we were five and started to plan our attack. In the End we decided to do it at Jim’s. The last years we only went there to get the tree and immediately went home and we thought he should be involved in our fun. He kind of was a part of our family and a Christmas without him wasn’t Christmas.

By now it was four in the afternoon and we were on our way to Jim. The car fell in silence after a little Smalltalk and I felt quite uncomfortable. I hated silence. It felt like it could overrun you and it was simply suffocating to me. I sat in the back between Josh and Sam which didn’t help either since Josh always gave me those “It’s almost time.” looks while Sam was trying to find a way to hold my hand without anyone noticing. Yeah. We were still together and even happier than before. We haven’t had a fight or anything else like that. It was perfect. Except for the part where we were hiding our relationship. But I enjoyed our time together. We joked around and cuddled all the time. In school we looked at each other with longing and sincere eyes and took every chance we could get to be near each other. With each day I fell more and more for her. But we still haven’t said “I love you” yet. It kind of made me sad but I didn’t want to take it too fast. What if she didn’t feel the same way about me? I wouldn’t want to scare her away and lose her. No. I’d enjoy the time I had with her. No matter if we were a secret or not. As we finally reached Jim’s little marketplace dad parked his car and everyone got out.