Forever My......

8.

Friday, January 30, 2015

Xayvion Taylor,

Bryce has been spending the night with me since last Wednesday and I honestly don't mind. She a better room mate then Danny. Speaking of Danny a nigga ain't talked to him since last Wednesday.

"So my mother thinks we are sex buddies." Bry said looking up at me from her phone.

"Why?"

"Because she is a freak."

"But why would she think that? Aren't you a virgin?"

"No, I lost my virginity prom night sadly."

"You was raped?"

"No just a victim of peer pressure."

"Damn, I think most people lose their virginity because of peer pressure."

"I think is it wasn't for peer pressure, I would still be a virgin and I honestly wouldn't mind being one. My first time was horrible. I was uncomfortable and it lasted all of three seconds, plus it took him four minutes to find the hole and I was just so over it."

"He was probably a virgin as well. He could have been nervous."

"He had a child, he wasn't a virgin. He was just ugh and plus I didn't expect it to be like a fairytale but I wasn't expecting it to be so bad. Like I lost something so important in a ugh way."

"So I take it you haven't had sex since." I said looking at her.

"Nope the next time I have sex is going to be when I'm ready. I'm not about to let anyone talk me into sex anymore."

"Ain't nothing wrong with that."

"How was your first time?" She asked propping herself up on her arm.

"It was awkward. I had no clue on what I was doing and peer pressure played a big part in it because I use to always hang with my big cousins."

"What made it awkward?"

"The fact that I was 13 and she was 17 played a big part in making it awkward and also the fact that my cousins were in the living room and her room was right next to the living room. So basically everybody just knew what was going on and it was so awkward when we walked out the room."

"13 and 17, that is just wow." She said looking at me. "You lost your virginity so young."

"Yeah I know. I kinda of regret it but then again I don't."

"That's a four year age difference." She said going back to our ages.

"I know."

"That's jail time." She said shaking her head. "In the state of Virginia she could be locked up for statutory rape."

"I know."

"Like you was a baby to her. Your balls had just dropped but she had been entered womanhood."

"Okay Bryce I get it."