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Thursday, July 2, 2015

Xayvion Taylor,

I looked at Bryce as she rocked Dula side to side.

"You don't have to stay baby." I said looking at her from my hospital bed.

I know today's her birthday and it's depressing as hell to just be sitting here with me waiting to hear my fate on her 20th birthday.

"We not leaving you." She said standing up.

She kissed my lips and then sat back down.

"We not going anywhere at all. Me and Dula are always going to be here for you."

"Hey baby." Momma and Zakari said walking in.

And after they walked in Grammy, Olivia, Daniel, and my doctor walked in.

"How are you feeling Mr. Taylor?" He asked looking at me.

Oh, why am I on the hospital. I passed out and Bryce called the ambulance so I been here for about two days.

"I been good." I said looking at him as everybody turned around to look at him.

"Well you CAT Scan came back and you have a low grade frontal lobe tumor. Now it's not bad but I feel like we should remove it because it becomes deadly. We are not sure if it's cancerous or noncancerous yet." Dr. Aboujadi said looking at use with sympathetic look.

"But will it come back?" Bry asked standing up. "What's his chance of survival?"

Momma took Dula out Bry arms while Olivia hugged her.

"With his age he has a 49.2 chance of survival with the surgery."

Who would have thought a nigga would be fighting for his life at age 21. I'm just know finding the person I want to spend my life with and have children with and I'm dying.

I looked around the room and everyone held the same sad expression. I couldn't even bring myself to look my mom or Bryce in the eyes.

"Mr. Taylor I need to know if you plan to do the surgery or not. So that we can prepare." Dr. Aboujadi said.

"We here for you no matter what Simba." My momma said.

"What's the long term effect?" I asked looking at him.

"With the surgery it can give you the rest of your life with your family and without the surgery I would say you will only have about five months left with them. Now we are going to schedule for you to be seen for the next five years because it can come back especially if it's cancerous." He said.

I took a deep breath and started thinking.

"How soon can I get the surgery?" I asked.

"In about two to three todays."

Five months v. five years is a big difference. I mean I'm five months the farthest I can probably get in life is marrying Bryce but in five years I can marry her and have Waverly and Mekonnen.

"I want the surgery."

"Okay Mr. Taylor, I'll we get everything ready and then we will talk surgery day." My doctor said walking out.

I looked over and Bryce and my mom as my mom hugged her.

"Bryce." I called out causing her to look at me. "Come here baby."

My momma let her go and she walked over to me. I grabbed her arm and pulled her to me.

"I love you." I said to her as she climbed in the bed.

"I love you too." She said before she started crying in my chest.

I understand why she is so emotional. I mean her dad is only living because of a machine because they pronounce him brain dead two days ago, her mom is still in a coma, and now I'm about to have brain surgery and if things don't go right. The only family Bryce will have is Dula and Grammy, and not to wish anything back on Grammy but she is older in age and is starting to develop her own little health problems.

"I need you to stay strong for me Bryce." I said as I kissed her cheek. "For me baby."

"I can't."

"You one of the strongest women I know, so I know that was a lie. I need you to hold everything down for me baby."

She looked up at me and nodded her head before kissing my cheek.

"Okay." She said after the loss and pulled me into a tight hug.

"You gone beat this Xayvion you are strong baby." My momma said kissing my forehead.

I nodded my head and just looked down at Bryce.

She was so quiet but I knew she was still crying because I can feel her body jerk every few minutes.

"Try and get some rest Xayvion, we all gone be here when you wake up and if we not we only went to get food." Momma said as they all sat in the chairs.

Everyone was so quiet and I'm not sure if it's the fact that it seem like once me and Bry got together everything that could go wrong has went wrong or odd it's because they are all tired, I'm just not sure.

But I know for a fact I'm tired and not even in a sleepy way, I just want to be happy with my lady and not have to worry about shit like this. I mean damn how depressing would it be to died and leave the one you love not knowing how much you love them or how good yo stroke game is, shit crazy.

A nigga been fighting all his life. I was born with a hole next to my heart, had to take medicine and was on machines until I was about 10. Had tonsillitis at age 2 and nearly died because my tonsils were so swollen they almost closed my throat, then I was allergic to the pus that my tonsils were releasing so I was having allergic reactions to that but then I got them taken out. Like damn can I get a break, the hospital was home for majority of my life and just when I though the only time I would be back up here would be when my kids are born I was wrong.

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