I put some nutrients in my stomach. I have to have a little something every now and then to stay alive. I should feel great when I eat. But I don't. All I feel is guilt... My stomach aches with pain. Every bite I take hurts me. My stomach is never satisfied, it will grumble its want food, and it aches when I eat. I don't know what hurts more, eating or not eating. This has gotten so bad that I get nauseas at the sight of food. It's so delicious and tempting. But I have to resist scarfing it all down. Sometimes I can't stop myself. The first word that pops into my head when I look in a mirror "fat" I've carved the word fat many times on my skin. I don't think I'm fat, but Ana does... She's the only one that's always there when I need someone. I obey her rules which led me to a never ending game also known as an eating disorder. An eating disorder is nothing to joke about it's an actual fear of losing weight. It's any range of psychological disorders characterized by abnormal or disturbed eating habits. My kind of eating disorder is called Anorexia Nervosa. I have a lack of appetite for food.I have an emotional disorder characterized by an obsessive desire to lose weight by refusing to eat. I have a problem...
