I know they're other ways to loose weight. I recently tried to make myself throw up, or in scientific terms, be bulimic. I have several scars on my knuckle from doing it. But no matter how hard I tried nothing would come up, and now I have to take medicine because my glands are swollen. This is how bad I want to be skinny. I am so close to being 99lbs I'm at 100.2 right now. I think back to when it was October of 2013 I weighed 115 pounds. I was so angry at myself, I yelled at myself for weighing "too much" even though I was still 5 pounds underweight. Slowly I began to loose more and more weight. I don't think it's noticeable, yet... If I continue loosing maybe everyone will notice then. The haven't noticed what it's doing to me, but they notice that something is different. They act like they know who I am, but in reality they don't know shit. They don't understand why we do it, they think it's their fault and that we're hurting ourselves to get their attention. Can you fucking stop think about yourselves and think about us for a chance? Is it possible for you to actually pay attention and notice that I'm dying?! Well I guess not. I wonder when you will, probably when I'm dead....
