*danis pov *
"So babe, when's the party?" I asked Santana.
"It's on the 23rd at 6."
"Okay, Rachel throws some pretty crazy parties. How doe she not get caught?" I laughed.
"Rachel isn't so innocent you know-" I cut San off.
"I know." I giggled.
"Yeah well, she has her ways... She's sneaker than me." San huffed.
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"Well, I used to throw some pretty sick parties before... I would have one every other day because my parents weren't ever home.." San sighed then continued. "I would have so much alcohol at those parties but I never drank. I was just the provider. I didn't believe in drinking. But eventually, I got caught by my mom. After 2 months she came home. She grounded me but left the next day... So it was like I was never grounded but she had the neighbors make sure I didn't have anymore parties. I grew very popular at school, because of my parties. I was always popular at school... I always tried to have more parties but I kept getting stopped. I eventually stopped trying and grew out of partying." San laughed at the end.
"If you didn't believe in alcohol, why'd you drink at Rachel's party?" I asked confused.
"Well, I felt like letting go. Having fun for once.. The parties I had were fun but I really didn't have anyone that loved me to have fun with, not sex wise but actual love." Santana explained and put her hand on her heart. She then continued, " I had Quinn, I know she loves me but like a sister. That's how I always thought of her. My sister... I hate to say it but,-" she took a moment, "- I had meaningless sex with girls and boys at my parties to take the pain away... It kills me to say it. I was practically the school slut." San explained shaking her head. It killed me to think that she had sex with someone else. We didn't even know each other existed but it still hurt.
I pulled Santana into a hug. She was getting herself down again.
"Well now you have me. I love you. That's who you were before p, the past, not the present or the future I hope." I said and kissed her forehead.
"I know that's not going to be me in the future because you are my future." San smiled weakly.
"Awe baby." I smiled a blush forming on my cheeks.
"I love you." Santana said and cuddling her head in the crook of my neck. I laid down on the couch, Sam on top of me. Her arms were wrapped around my waist and her head in the crook of my neck. I wrapped my arms around her and kissed the top of her head. I whispered sweet things in her ear, like how much I love her and everything I love about her. How beautiful she is and all.
"Im in love with you.... And all your little things..." I sang.
"I don't understand how you're so nice Dani. Are you ok?" San chuckled.
"Yes I'm fine. I just love you. And you're so nice to me but not a lot of other people. Why?" I laughed.
"Because I love you! I know I have some anger problems but I'm working through them, I promise! I just don't like watching someone hurt you... Or even the thought of it. It ticks me off. And awhile back when you told me you self harmed, I was heartbroken and we didn't know each other that well... You didn't understand that when you hurt yourself, you were hurting me too." Santana said and I saw a tear slide down her face. I quickly wiped it away with my thumb. I didn't realize I was also crying until I felt tears roll down my face.
"I-I-I I'm s-sorry sani." I didn't know what else to say.
" you helped me get better though." I said and smiled remembering all the times I felt like self-harming but San would stop me before I could.
