A daughters love (Andrew Lincoln fanfic)

Thirty nine.

I left the hospital for the first time in days I stupidly walked to the hospital parking lot before realising I didn't even have my car there. So I walked and I walked before coming to the park that Andrew and I sometimes took Ella to.

The thing with the park is that I just loved them as a kid all the way up to my teens, it's where I'd go if I needed to think or to get away.
When my parents split up I'd spend hours at the park just sitting on the swing to avoid being at home with all the arguments, I'd end up forgetting the time and Sawyer would come looking for me but he knew he wouldn't have to come far.

I sat on the swing looking around the dark park and across the park I saw a familiar person walking my way it was Andrew, I sat there watching as he approached me.

"How did you know I was here?" I asked him as he sat on the swing next to me.

"I remembered that you told me it was one of you favourite places to think growing up, so I took a gamble"

"Where's Ella?" I asked him.

"She's at home with Norman" Andrew replied.

I sighed out hating the fact that our daughter had barely seen me and Andrew and now she had been dumped on Norman, I felt like a right shitty parent.

"It should be me in that hospital bed" I said looking down sighing out. "I should be there clinging on to life, if I just died in the car accident none of this would of happened"

"No it wouldn't of" Andrew said "but if you had died, Ella would of lost her mom, I would if lost you. None of this is on you, it's Toni, my psychotic ex wife" Andrew gets off the swing and crouched down in front of me "look I want to tell you that Sawyer is going to pull through but I can't, but what I can tell you is that none of this is on you, you can blame yourself but it won't change what's happened, what you can do is come out of this a stronger person show Toni that she's not won"

"Your totally right" I said looking Andrew in the eyes, why should I let her destroy me she's probably took my brother I'm not going to let her take my life I thought to myself.

"I know I am" Andrew smiled "we gonna get through this Riley" he told me, I nodded my head standing up help Andrew stand up straight.

"I know we are" I said taking Andrew's hand "let's go home I need to give our daughter a cuddle before bed"

As we arrived back at the car I looked over to Andrew watching him open the car door "I know a lots gone on but I think we should start planning the wedding" I suggested.

"What's made you decide that?" He questioned me.

"Well you mentioned letting Toni destroy my life, us getting married that's not letting her destroy our life, it's what we both want so let's do it" I said staring at Andrew waiting for his answer.

"Id love that" he nodded with a smile.