Jordyn's POV
I haven't seen Nate in a couple of days. I was sort of avoiding him. Ever since the other night, i just feel so anxious when he's around.
Who was he with?
Was she prettier than me?
Thoughts raced through my mind just thinking about him. I definitely have feelings for him, i just don't know what they are yet.
But even if i considered ever even being something to him was absolutely outrageous. I will never be as pretty. I will never be as smart. I with never be perfect.
I look like a burnt potato.
He could get so many girls, ones that aren't as fucked up. Ones that didn't have panic attacks and blocks out everyone just to avoid her problems.
I sat in my bed, my feet to my chest and my laptop in from of my feet.
Today was the day. I was going to find my sister.
I 'stalked' her on all of her social medias. Just from her picture of her being outside, i could see her address and street sign. I know. Its sorta creepy. But that's life.
I needed to know my sister. She might be all I have left.
Getting dressed, i decided first impressions count. I sat in the mirror doing my make-up. Guiding black lipstick over my lips.
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I pulled my car shut for the fifth time.
She's probably gonna think I'm a weirdo.
The engine roared, and I backed out of the driveway slowly.
"Wait!" my car came to a halt as i glanced behind me. A girl a little younger than me was standing behind my car with a fair skinned lady behind my car. She looked in her thirties or older.
I fanatically hopped out of my car.
"Im am so sorry. I didn't even see you!" I stopped talking as the younger girl looked up. It was her. My sister was standing right in front of me. She was so beautiful. She was tall and skinny, her hair styled just like mine.
"Miss!" i snapped out of my thoughts to see the older woman snapping her fingers in my face.
"Is you blind and deaf". I shook my head, surprised by her words.
"Excuse my mother, we were just on a walk and she hurt her leg so she's a little cranky".
Mother. That was her mother.
Does she even know?
"Oh, no problem. My mother sad like that too?"
"So what the hell were you doing in my drive way". The older lady was now on her porch, sitting in the porch swing.
"Mom", Isabelle gave her mother a stern look. "Sorry again. Im Isabelle Miyer. That's my mother Ann". She stook her hand and i shook it. She walked up to the porch slowly and i follow.
"Well. I am Jordyn Leigh and i-".
"Get aways from here". I looked over to Ann. Her eyes wide and her face red.
She knows who i am.
"Go". Isabelle stood confused, trying to calm her mother down. "Go!" i turned and walked back to my jeep quickly. I sat in my seat and started the engine. I saw the look of sympathy on Isabelle's face.
So much for meeting my sister.
Why wouldn't her mother want her to meet me? She obviously knows who i am!
I tried to clear my mind once more, but the look of fear on her face played over in my head. Like i was a monster. I am a monster.
I stopped at the red light on the corner of their street.
"Hey!" i recognized Isabelle's voice. I turned around to see her running towards my car. I put the car in park considering there was no one behind me.
"Hey. I am so sorry about my mother". She was out of breath, a few strands of hair fell over her face but she just tucked them back.
"No problem. I get it. Its kinda weird when you come home to a stranger sitting in your driveway". We both quietly giggle until silence fell upon us.
"Jordyn, if you wouldn't mind, could you drive me down to the Starbucks down the streets. It's not that far, I was just hoping you would join me?" i nodded and smiled as she got in.
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"I can't believe we grew up together". Isabelle stared down at the pictures of us when we were little. Ones that I had found i the storage unit.
"Yea. I know. It's been a while". She nodded.
I convinced her that we were best friends but then our parents got into and argument and never spoke again; and that why her mom wanted me to leave, because she recognize me.
"This is crazy. We definitely have to hang out sometime!" her faced beamed with happiness. Her eyes sparkled and her cheeks were a light shade of pink. Her teeth were sparkly white and perfectly straight. She was so beautiful. And to think she was- is my sister.
"Yea. I just found these pictures and figured, why the hell not". She laughed at my tone of voice.
"So how old are you".
"Im nineteen. What about you, Isabelle?" her smile widened.
"Im only 16, but I'll be 17 in less than a month".
"Wait, when is your birthday".
"November 28th". Wow. That's like 19 days away.
Should i get her a present.
Isabelle rambled on about her birthday and how awesome it was going to be, but i just tuned out.
"Opps". I shook out of my thoughts and looked up at her. She was looking down at her phone. "My moms worried she's on her way to come pick me up. I saw a black Honda suddenly pull up outside of the Starbucks. I could feel her eyes burning through me.
"Oh wait!" just as she was about to leave Isabelle turned around and handed me her phone. "Can i get your number? I would love to hand out sometime". I nodded and took her phone and a big smiled spread across my face. I also handed her my phone.
"Bye. She waved, walking out to her mother's care. I watch and noticed that right as she opened the car door, Ann started throwing questions at her.
Probably about me. She shouldn't worry. Im not gonna tell her; yet.
I threw out my empty cup and headed out to my jeep, the bell on the the door ringing behind me.
I sat at the red light. I would be her for a while, it was a busy street.
I glanced down at my phone, noticing the text icon popping up. I clicked it and opened the text since the light was still red.
From: Nate🙈✌❤
Jordyn...i miss you..please come over. I hate this.
I smiled down at the text.
So this is how it feels. This is how it feels to be wanted.
I goofily stared down at my phone reading the text over and over again, deciding whether or not i should respond.
Beep!
A car honked behind me seeing the light was red.
Im going to see Nate.
I pressed on the gas pedal, inching forward.
I looked out my window, but my smile quickly faded as i saw a car headed straight for me.
