Little Me

I can't.

So on Wednesday night I was hanging out with my boyfriend I don't deserve and the one every girl wants...
We had a good time chilling at his place and I knew that night I'd have to see his friends.
I have.. Really bad anxiety and I thought maybe I've improved and could handle it.. That was far from the truth.
One girl hugged him a way I would and looked at him the way I would. At least I think but I'm not sure.. I don't wanna start anything.. And other girls came
That bothered me some but all the thoughts rushing through my head and being there and it actually happened then people surrounding me.. It was a lot for me.
I was in tears and started to walk away then ran to get away from everyone, including him. Causing him to leave his thing just so he can chase me, cry, try to calm me down and saved me from almost getting hit by a car.
Ugh.. Didn't want any of that to happen. I can't control it.
Just wish I didn't make such a bad impression.
I'm all good now ._.