a life in words

amnesia

"i wish that i could wake up with amnesia 

and forget about the stupid little things

like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you"

i can remember hearing that song

and my heart broke

i couldnt think of a love that hurt that bad 

to make you want to forget everything 

until

a week later

when you shattered my heart

and suddenly

i wanted to forget you

i wanted to forget how your lips felt pressed against mine

i wanted to forget how warm it was with you sleeping peacefully beside me 

i wanted to forget all the times you had made me laugh so hard my stomach hurt

i wanted to forget how your hand felt intertwined with mine 

i wanted to forget gripping onto you so tight on the back of the four wheeler

i wanted to forget your sweaty hugs after football

i wanted to forget your name

i wanted to forget your face

i still want to forget you

i wish that i could wake up with amnesia