a life in words

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i'm not positive about a lot in life,
not school or sports or a social life,
not words I speak or songs I sing,
and now there's this one more thing,
and it's less of a thing and more of a he,
but you see I've hurt this he,
more than I'd like to admit or talk about,
because I went and chose another he,
one that I thought I was pretty dang positive about,
but turns out now my world is just flipped upside down,
and everyone is telling me to just go north,
but I don't want this to be where I find my worth,
I just want to know where it leads,
and where he lies,
and if I have to break another heart to finally be right,
but I'm stuck here,
looking for any crack of light,
that would maybe finally lead me to the right guy.