Girl of Never : Days to Love (Chat MD Series #4)

Day 142 : I miss you

I miss you
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"Baby... Nasan ka?" sabi ni Harry habang umiiyak.

Nakapangalumbaba ako sa couch habang nakatingin sa kanya. Nasa magkabilang dulo kami ng upuan. I'm a little drunk with all the singing and the alcohol. Habang si Harry? He's way too drunk to realize what he's been doing for the past thirty minutes.

It all started after I finished eating. Bumalik kami sa living room ni Harry at nakipagkwentuhan sa mga nasa confe call habang umiinom. Nang kailangan nang bumalik sa duty nina MM at Ash (apparently, they only asked for a four-hour time off), napunta kami sa kantahan. All of us sang, except kay Harry. Kahit ako na kung saan-saang direksyon papunta ang boses, naglakas-loob. Blame it on the alcohol.

Hindi ko namalayan kung paanong sobrang nalasing si Harry but I have an idea : nilasing nila. Kasi si JT, tawa lang nang tawa nang magsimulang umiyak si Harry.

It's a little after one. Umidlip muna si Hannah sa kwarto kasama sina Jen at Helga. Naiwan kami ni JT sa living room, kasama si Harry.

For thirty minutes, JT was convincing Harry to let go of Neah's picture on a frame (na yakap nito) and of the bottle of alcohol (na iniinom pa rin nito). Ako naman, hindi makaalis sa kinauupuan ko kasi everytime na gagalaw ako, kahit gaano kaliit-

"Baby, gumagalaw 'yung pinsan mo..." Harry whined. Ang higpit ng yakap niya sa picture ni Neah habang nakabantay sa kilos ko.

Jesus Christ!

Harry is all comical, pitiful, and cute. Natatawa ako na naiiyak na nai-in love sa kanya. How to get rid of all of my interest with this man, kung pati 'yung bagay na nasasaktan ako, minamahal ko pa rin?

"I'm not-"

"Neah, nakatingin siya sa'kin!"

"-doing anything, Harry." Bumaling ako kay JT na nakaupo lang sa couch. "Do something."

"Hayaan mo siya. Ang lakas ng topak 'pag lasing," sabi nito.

Nangalumbaba uli ako at tumitig kay Harry. Totoo namang umiiyak siya. Some of his outbursts were of pain. Pero kapag gumalaw ako-

"Nakatingin na naman siya, Neah... Ano'ng iniisip niya?"

I burst out laughing. "I'm thinking of kissing you," kantiyaw ko at tumingala. "Hey, Neah! Hahalikan ko ba si Harry?"

"Umayos ka, Aling Jia! Baka magalit si Neah," pigil ni Harry.

Nanatili akong nakatingala. Kunwari, may naririnig ako.

"What? Halikan ko si Harry para sa'yo?"

"Walang sinabi si Neah a! Wala akong narinig!"

Kumilos ako palapit sa kanya. "May sinabi siya Harry babe... I got her consent to kiss you."

Nangungulit lang naman ako, seeing how drunk he was. Pero pahilamos na itinakip ni Harry ang palad sa mukha niya at umiyak. Natigilan ako.

We could see him gritting his teeth. Nakikita rin namin ang pagguhit ng panibagong luha sa pisngi niya.

"If you can hear her... why can't I? I'm asking her about a lot of things," Harry said in gritted teeth. "I wanted to hear her, too."

I bit my lower lip. Nagkatinginan kami ni JT at hindi ko napigilang maiyak. Ang sakit ng dibdib ko.

"Sorry..." bulong ko kay Harry. "I didn't really hear her say anything. If there's someone who's going to hear her first, I knew it would be you. Sorry, it was a bad joke."