Our Love Story ❁ Shadamy Story

Chapter 13

I LITERALLY WROTE THIS AT LIKE 2AM LOL, if you think this chapter totally ruins the story or if you have anything to say, PLEASE DON'T HESITATE TO TELL ME!! PRIVATE OR IN THE COMMENTS, I DON'T CARE. You guys don't know how much I appreciate feedback. I haven't edited this haha

Shadow dropped me off at my house without saying another word. It was actually kind of strange now, and I was getting kind of mad. Why would he leave without leaving me some sort of explanation?

I entered the house and saw Maria and Rouge playing Wii Sports. They looked like they were having lots of fun, but right now I needed some time for myself.

I went into my room and put on the song 7 11 by Beyoncé on my Ipod with all the volume up. I changed into shorts and a tank top. I put my hair into a bun and started dancing.

I was feeling myself. I don't know why I was worring over a guy that wasn't even real dating me.

I grabbed my laptop and went onto twitter. I was going through my timeline, when a tweet by Mina catched my eyes.

"If you think I'm not worth it, just remember your boyfriend still flirts with me 💅👀 - @ groovymina"

I was totally going to tweet something shady now.

"What kind of self drag 💀 Is it just me, or are you basically calling yourself the second choice?  🐸☕ - @ westcoastamy"

Honesty, I felt like I could do anything . As if nobody could mess with me right now..

I wanted to get drunk and party all night. Fool boys, kiss, skinny dip, laugh. Anything.

I wanted to walk the streets with someone in the middle of the night screaming and waking up the neighbors. Sing karaoke and not care if I embarrassed myself in public. I wanted someone who I could watch the sunset and them to say that I was more beautiful than it. I wanted to fall in love.

The breakup with Scourge was totally messing with me, I don't even know if I actually feel for him. Also with Shadow, I don't think I actually like him. I think I like the idea of him.

I picked up my phone and called the one person who I know I once truly loved.

"Um, hey Sonic. Sorry for calling at this hour. Do you think we can meet up?"

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I was waiting for Sonic at a park close to both of our houses. I'm kinda regretting this now. Why would I call my ex?

"Hey Ames" Sonic sat beside me at the bench. It was so cold outside, I could see his breath coming out of his mouth.

I smiled at him and put my head on his lap.

"Do you think I'm pretty?" I asked.

I think that question startled him a bit, because he looked at me with his eyes furrowed together.

"Why are you asking?"

"Just answer my question"

He looked up for a few seconds, thinking of an answer, and then looked down at me again.

"I think your beautiful"

I was so close to crying. I don't know why I was feeling so sad at the moment.

"Amy, what's wrong?" He said with worry in his voice.

"I don't know. I feel so alone."

"Well just now that you're not alone,  you have people who love you and care for you"

"Sonic, do you still love me?"

"Love is something very nice. I don't think you should be playing with that word"

I looked away, and up into the stars. The constellations. How could balls of gas far away make me so happy?

"Aren't you dating Shadow?"

Oh god, stupid fake relationship.

"It's fake, Sonic. Everything about that is fake. It just a plan to cover up"

"So you guys don't have anything going on?" He asked confused.

"Nothing at all"

We stayed quiet for a few minutes. I got up and invited him for a walk. We didn't speak during the walk either. Sonic took a lighter out of his pocket and lighted up a cigarette.

"Amy, I love you "

"You do?" I asked shockingly.

"Yeah, but I don't think there will be anything between us. There can't be. It hurts us" He said taking in a long puff and letting it all out.

"I love you too" I said it back. I felt so quite at ease saying that. Like a whole bunch of bricks were taken of my chest.

"I understand you now. You're  confused about yourself. Let me tell you something,  I don't think you need a boy to remind you that you're perfect in your own ways. You need to accept that you are you, and there is no one better than you to tell you who you are. You define yourself. Don't let someone else choose that for you" he said.

With that he came closer to me and kissed me. With all the sadness in the world, I kissed him back. I tasted salt. I tasted bittersweet memories. I tasted amity. I loved him, I loved him, I loved him.

I still do.

But he was right. It hurt us. In ways I didn't understand why. But it's okay. Because there is many things that we don't understand, but that is okay. It's better that way, to not comprehend somethings.

We kissed until we ran out of breath. We kissed even more after that. We kissed until our bodies where so tired.

We were both conscious of what was happening. This was going to be our last kiss. The last time we got to talk about our feelings like this. I wanted it to last forever. But I knew it couldn't. It was agonizing. Reality would soon catch on and everything will drop like glass and shatter everywhere.

He pulled away and rested his head on my forehead.

We catched our breath.

"Amy, take care. I love you" He kissed my forehead and left in a flash.

I was a mess.

I walked home and wondered about what John Green wrote.

"Thinking that if people were rain, I was drizzle and she was a hurricane"

Sonic was for sure the fucking hurricane with a little bit of drizzle on the side.