The Girl of my Dreams (romanogers)

Part 16

After 1 month

Natasha

Steve had said he would return in a week, but he didn't, a whole month passed and there was no news about him. Every day passed like an year, and I lived a feared life, too many what ifs came to my mind. But my heart knew one thing. He was alive. Because my heart still functioned.

It was just another day, I returned after a jog and took a bath. Wrapping a towel around my body, I stepped out of the restroom and was shocked. Steve stood by the door, staring at me.

"Steve" My happiness knew no bounds, I rushed to him and threw my arms around him.

"Oh Steve, thank God you are back, I was so worried so scared" I was unable to breathe, my heartbeat raced. He hugged me back, but stayed silent.

"Steve... " I had tears in my eyes, I kissed his forehead, his eyes, his cheeks. And when I was going for his lips, he put a finger on mine. That's when I noticed that his eyes were different, they weren't glowing , he looked at me differently, not with love, like he always did.

"Steve! You look different " I said.

"I am different, Natalia " he said, he called me Natalia? But why?, "Your foolish Steve Rogers, Captain America is gone, hail hydra ".

My heart skipped a beat, did he just say. He grabbed my hair and pulled, I flinched in pain, "You married me, and now I would break you, destroy you, because you deceived my masters".

"What masters? Steve? What has happened to you? " he pulled again.

"Hydra took me and changed me into better, I'm no longer Captain America the righteous, I am here to destroy the avengers" he said, "but not you dear wife, for you I have different plans".

He left my hair and I stepped back, there was lust in his eyes, this wasn't my Steve, this was just his body, his soul was gone. I stepped back but he got me, he pulled my towel, and I fell on the bed.

"No, Steve, no" I yell helplessly, he towered me.

"You are my wife, I own you" he said, before kissing my neck. He was the same person who had made love to me so many times before, and now his touch disgusted me, broke my soul. He held my arms, and I was defenseless, not because I couldn't, but because my heart was too broken to respond. But my eyes opened when I thought of Steve, he would hate himself for hurting him, he won't be able to forgive himself even though he isn't himself now, he would die of guilt. No! I can't let that happen. I shouldn't protest, I closed my eyes again and let my mind think this was my Steve, as always, making love to me. He tried to make it painful, but I didn't respond, I don't want it to be in his memory that he hurt me.
He moved away, "I'll be back Natalia, when I am ready to destroy your friends". He left before I could do anything more.

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"What did you say? " Tony asked again.

"Steve has fallen in hydra's trap and he is under mind control" I told him, my eyes red with all the crying ever since.

Wanda stood by my side, holding my shoulders.

"And he.. Nat why didn't you fight? " Tony spoke with gritted teeth.

"I couldn't Tony, he.. he loves me" and I can never hurt him.

"This can't be happening, Rogers hurt you? You are his heart and soul" Tony couldn't believe it, neither could I.

"They wanted him to do it so he gets destroyed, even when he is back to normal" I started crying again and fell to the floor. Tony rushed to my side and hugged me.

"We'll bring him back, I promise Nat" he consoled me.

Sam rushed inside, "He's gone, T'Challa just called, they took Bucky".

Tony stood up in anger, "We need a plan, we need to bring Rogers back, and someone needs to be with Natasha, she isn't safe, what happened once shouldn't happen again".

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Two weeks later

There was still no news, Steve didn't return, Tony couldn't find anything, he was mad, at his helplessness. And I was broken.

I didn't feel anything, except sadness, I didn't feel like eating or dressing or anything normal people did. I was a corpse ever since my husband tried to take me by force. And what hurt me more was, he won't be able to forgive himself , his pain at that time would be enough to kill me.
I sat by the window and stared out, hoping I would see him, hoping he would return as himself.
Maria entered with breakfast.

"Come on Nat, eat something " she said putting a hand on my shoulder.
I nodded and stood up, but my head started spinning, there were certain blackouts, and I felt like puking. I rushed inside the washroom and puked. Maria entered and rubbed my back.
"Nat? Are you alright? " I rinsed my mouth.

"I don't know, I'm feeling so sick" she helped me out and settled me on the couch. Her phone blinked and the date surprised me.

"Maria, I need to go to the pharmacy, please, fast" I picked up the bread and ate fast.

"What happened Nat? " she asked worried.

"Please, just take me" I begged.

"Okay, okay let's go" She helped me up and we walked out.

We reached the pharmacy, "wait for me" I told her and hurried inside, getting what I desired I got back into the car.

"Nat will you please tell me what's wrong? " she asked.

"I'll tell you Maria, just wait for it. " I said.

We got back home and I rushed into the restroom. I checked and rechecked multiple times, and then stepped out.

"Natasha Romanoff Rogers! Will you tell me what's wrong? " she asked in anger.

"Maria.. " I sat on the couch, "I'm pregnant".

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