The Girl of my Dreams (romanogers)

Part 6

Natasha

My heart was tearing, I just want Steve back, no matter what it takes, I feel guilty that I didn't side with him, but then I also feel guilty for betraying Tony at the last moment, Tony was ride, I am a double agent by nature. I can never be loyal to one.
Days were passing like years, it had been 2 weeks and I felt like I had been suffering for 20 years. Tony supported me, even after everything he still stood by me, helped me stabilize.

I stood infront of the mirror, combing my hair, I had to look human even if the storm inside my heart didn't allow.

There was some noise outside, I didn't care much, it must be Tony helping Rhodey, or Vision breaking stuff as he tried cooking.

"Where is she?" I heard..his voice. Was he here? Was he actually here or was it another imagination of mine? I dropped my brush, it fell on the floor with a thud, and rushed out of the room.

He stood in the living room, with Vision, he wore a black sweat shirt and blue jeans, his eyes bright as ever. I stopped dead as his eyes fell on me.

"I think you got your answer Captain Rogers, I'll take your leave now" Vision left with a nod.

Steve stared at me, with worry, with trust, with love. I couldn't move, I forgot to breath. He took slow steps towards me, I stood still until he was only inches away, I threw my arms around him and cried.

"I can't believe you are finally here Steve, I just can't " my voice was broken.

"Tony asked T'Challa to call me, I couldn't refuse" he replied calmly. He pulled me back and took my face into his hands, "What happened to you? "

What should I reply now? I don't even know what happened myself, "Its just that, we should stay together ".

He smiled, "We are gonna stay together, Tony is figuring things out with the government "

"Where are the others? " I asked trying to divert his attention from myself, he was back and with me, that's all I ever wanted.

"They are at Clint's, they'll come back once things are sorted" he looked down.

"Natasha" his voice changed all of a sudden.

"Yes, Steve" I got curious, his eyes had an ocean of emotions.

"Marry me" he said, just like that, he didn't even ask, he just tells me to marry him?

I didn't know how to respond, my eyes wandered here and there, my head lowered, my hands rubbed against each other. He took my hands in his, and I looked up at him.

"I love you Natasha, I always have, you are everything to me, and I want you to be mine, to be my wife, not a mere girlfriend, not a fake temporary relationship, but a real, forever lasting bond. That's why I was hurt that day, because you accepted me even without loving me back just because you thought I would get over you and move on. I can't, I never can, even if you reject me today, I won't ever get over you, because I love you, and if you can accept me, then marry me" his voice was broken but full of love.

"Steve.. I.. " I didn't know what to say, marriage is a big decision.

"I know you can't conceive and I don't care, I just want you by my side for my entire life", isn't that what I want too? To be with him, as a friend and family. And it won't be wrong to be his wife, he loves me, he cares for me deeply, and this relation has a proper name and meaning to it, a true family it would be then. I am not capable of love, no one I love would ever love me back, and even if he does, he won't love me as much as Steve. And I want Steve to be happy, I can't see his smile gone, if I am the one to make that smile stay, then I would.

"I will" I said confidently, looking him in the eye, "I will marry you Steve Rogers".

"Are you sure Natasha? " he asked

"More then my life, I accept to be your wife forever" if that means staying with you then I would happily do it. I want a family, and who would give that other then him.

He smiled brightly, this was a smile that I had never seen before, the brightest, the happiest, the most beautiful. Did I actually mean this much to him?

He took out a box from his pocket and knelt down, sitting on his knee, he pulled a ring out, and asked for my hand. I quickly gave him my left hand, and he slid down, a beautiful silver ring on my left ring finger. The smile never left his face. He stood back up, tangling my fingers into his, taking hold my waist with his free arm, he pulled me closer, he kissed me, I put my hand on his neck. We kissed for long, he didn't seem to get enough, and i couldn't get enough of his happiness. His happiness meant my own joy. He backed of to breath and again moved closer.

"Aren't you tired? " I teased.

"I can do this all day" I blushed at his statement, as he pulled me into another kiss.